How are yall doing today?

new to this whole thing and as of now i don’t think i need this but if i downloaded sometime i think i should try it. Doing good although i think to much about things that seem acute to others but sticks to me. Talking to somone right now and she seems very committed and im the same way 100% but its the little things that get to me such as her posting on her socials. Not in a thirst trap since but in ways that she likes to express herself. i’ve been thinking about it less lately realizing I shouldn’t be thinking of that cause its really not fair to her. I dont get very attached but when i do it overwhelms me, it seems im trapped in my own mind unwilling to change the subject and if i dont end up hurting myself mentally ill do something as stupid as sending her a tt thats targeted at her for something in the past or current situation, happened twice and wont ever again. Moving from relationships i wanna talk about religion. i often think about it as i dont know what to think, if theres somone out there really looking down do you think they wouldn’t intervene? but maybe there is an afterlife, Ive been nothing forever until i was a sperm, and i think it’s the same nothing after. We probably won’t remember life and its whole and forget who we are as our consciousness transforms into whatever energy it will take form of and live on forever but not as a person or thought just you forever, the real you. Philosophy taught me we have 3 faces the one you show to all, the one you show to family and friends, and the REAL you nothin but your consciousness living in a human being as you control it. I often call myself a procrastinator but people laugh but they just don’t get what i mean, when somone talks to me i swear ill think of its 10 times and make a response or think of it so much to respond cause i already have. With the real me. i twist my words to please other and give them the response they’d expect to hear. But in reality the answer is a complete opposite. i don’t think we are one being, i think we are two. One living up in our head and the one playing the game of life we go through. Sorry for the dump but this is most likely going to be my rant and just overall things to get out app.

Doing kinda bad today