Please help menon my last post this shit makes me wanna fucking die

Hey ❤️ I know it’s really hard not to, but I think you’re torturing yourself more by seeking reassurance in this forum. There’s a fine line between venting and expressing how you feel in a forum like this and seeking reassurance which only ultimately makes you feel worse and just feeds the irrational thought ☹️ I know it makes so much sense to you that your boyfriends pee hurts therefore it must be your fault but trust me from an outside perspective, it makes no sense at all that it would be in any way your fault considering you’ve come back clear for STI’s and you haven’t been unfaithful or anything. This app is actually more damaging to you and makes your OCD worse if you use it to seek reassurance and medical answers ☹️ my heart really goes out to you because I know exactly how you feel and I’ve been there myself, I feel the guilt and fear you feel as well every day over nothing. I hope you can get to see a proper OCD specialist too because it does seem like you really torment yourself and your obsession with STI’s is coming in between everything. Hang in there ❤️ things will get easier. Take some deep breaths, speak to that inner child who’s scared and trying to protect you when you feel panic like this and let her know that it’s okay. That’s what my counselor recommends anyway - when we get in that headspace and feel pure panic and fear and out of control, it’s actually your inner child or consciousness or something just trying to look out for you, but not doing a very good job of it ? Good luck ❤️

Hey, there is always another option, do you want to talk about it, share your worries ?

Are you currently seeing an OCD therapist? If not I think you should make that a top priority. From reading your previous posts I can tell your level or torment is extremely high and I don’t want to see you suffer like this.