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don’t confess no matter how hard it feels! that’s how you help yourself over time. i’ve had to do the same thing and it really sucks but it’s worth it. think about it this way, will telling your partner about this make them feel better or will it only make YOU feel better? often times i found that i only confessed for myself. my boyfriend doesn’t need to hear about all of the intrusive thoughts i have and as he’s someone who doesn’t have ocd i think they’d just make him upset. so it feels unfair to confess just so i can make myself feel better. hope that makes sense. you got this!

OCD IS THE WORST. And sometimes you just gotta say opposite even if you feel you 100% know. Just the way it is and live with the discomfort

Hi there, I can tell from your post that you seem to really care about your partner and want the best for them. Since the confession could hurt your partner and may not serve any purpose besides feeding your OCD, I'd really encourage you not to engage in the ritual confessing! We all have our attractive moments and less attractive moments, like right after we wake up. Have you learned much about response prevention, meaning strategies for not engaging in your compulsions? https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=riKw294RZMw&t=63s