I look back at all past interactions with others and think “what if they were a minor” even though there is no particular reason to think that they were. Is that a common obsession with Pocd? Has anyone else had this intrusive thought? It’s so scary and exhausting.
I’m currently struggling with this myself actually I went to therapy sessions and I feel like I’m the only person with these problems.. but sometimes it goes away and it comes back even harder. I can’t even say certain words or go to the store sometimes.. I know who I truly am and I have to tell myself that. If I’ve scrolled through something on Facebook and TikTok and see an attractive person it’s like my mind just immediately indicates that what if they are a child it’s hard to get past that one personally. I’m currently going through a stage where my secondary brain is agreeing with these things even though I’m not. I usually can just tell it no I know who I truly am but it’s now like this secondary mind is agreeing with itself. It’s a very difficult road to go down as of right now but I think we’ll make it through!
@chriswalker1124 I agree it feels so isolating to have these worries. Yes, it goes and I think I’m better, then it comes back with a vengeance.
@June123 I know how it feels I had to message my therapists today and she told me to just remember who I truly am and I’ve always told myself that if I fight with it then I know I’m a good person. That usually helps me.
I am going through this right now. You are not alone.
The short answer to your question is yes. Often members I work with who have POCD become very concerned about this to the point where they stop feeling able to have any normal, healthy interactions with others because this fear is so pervasive. It makes sense if you think about it, because your fear is a very scary possibility! But remember that when you go back to check or analyze, you're engaging in a process of compulsive rumination, which is going to keep you stuck in OCD. Here are some strategies for breaking the rumination cycle that OCD wants to keep you in. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/5-strategies-for-breaking-the-cycle-of-rumination
I’ve been feeling the urge to avoid intimacy or purposefully engage (for reassurance that I won’t give into a compulsion) because of intrusive thoughts and fear that I’ll “check/test” my reactions. My OCD is making me so scared that I’ll purposefully think of a child and try to see if I like it. It’s so complicated but I guess I’m mentally checking if I would mentally check during intimacy. I’ve even envisioned myself checking and it’s making me so nauseous. I know it’s a compulsion like any other but the sound of “touching yourself to the thought of a child” sounds atrocious and vile. I’m terrified I’ll automatically start checking next time I am being intimate. I truly feel so worried. If anyone has gone through something similar, I’d appreciate hearing your experience. Or if anyone has any advice?
Trying not to seek reassurance, but rather connect the dots on my OCD and possible reasons as to why I am the way I am. I have severe OCD (or at least I hope I do) mainly surrounding POCD. I've had symptoms of OCD the majority of my life but this theme has come up more recently. When I was a kid, and i'm talking 6-7, I was first exposed to some really gross adult content online. It was introduced to me by a friend of mine around the same age of me. I saw some really disgusting things that a 6-7 year old should definitely not see. This was not a one time occurrence, as I had been exposed to taboo topics online years to come after that, such as the same friend introducing me to Omegle... And i'm sure you can imagine how that went, theres a lot of genuinely disgusting human beings on there. Coming back to the reason for making this post; is it possible to early exposure to this content could be one of the reasons I struggle with POCD? It genuinely scares me to death because you hear that real p*dos dealt with simular situations when they were kids, so thats kind of making me feel that this could be more than OCD, and I could be a genuinely bad person. My POCD feels so real, that at times i'm fully convinced its not OCD. Sometimes I can't even distinguish the feelings of attraction between a younger person and an older person, except for the feeling of anxiety and fear. Its really hard to explain without going into detail, but it just feels so real. Some feedback on this would be great, thank you all.
I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation
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