ROCD?

If you know you still love her, you’re just caught up in trying to dismiss these thoughts. You don’t actually hate her and if you loved her a lot up until that very point, then there’s no feasible reason as to why you’d suddenly in that moment lose feelings. I’ve been in your exact spot with my boyfriend. I’d over analyze any little thought or feeling I had and convinced myself that I didn’t love him anymore and that I wasn’t attracted to him anymore. It’s such a difficult thought process to get out of. For me, I had to constantly remind myself that there’s going to be fluctuations in your moods in a relationship. What I mean by this is that you’re going to feel love stronger in some moments and love weaker in others, but this doesn’t mean you don’t love her still. This is such a difficult feeling to get past, but you’re not alone and I promise you still love her! You’re getting wrapped up in these thoughts and almost trying to prove them causing a rift between you and her. You’re not rude and you’re definitely not a bitch, you just have intrusive thoughts and they are very distressing. You are not alone! Over time for me, these thoughts weakened after being in my bfs presence more. I’ve definitely had flare ups when these thoughts would pop up, but I just had to keep reminding myself that I love him and that these thoughts were just my imagination trying to ruin me. Sending love 💕 again you’re not alone!

This actually occurred in my last relationship with an ex and i would get so upset to the point where I would tell him these thoughts. (At the time i didnt know I had OCD) and i just kept thinking i had doubts about the relationship. So we would break up and then I would be devastated as if he did it to me and then get back together. We did not end up together in the long run, but Its funny because now looking back as upsetting as it is and potentially could be, people lose feelings for others every day. It’s not ideal but is it the end of the world truly? When I tell myself things like that, i dont feel that same weight where it’s the end of the world and it doesnt hold as much meaning as I gave it and the thoughts would come and go much easier. The more I analyzed how i felt, the more I questioned it. The more i told myself i would know the difference if I didnt love someone and the person i am with, the less those thoughts meant to me. And the fact that you are so upset by the thought of not caring or loving your significant other just shows how much you do, otherwise the thoughts wouldnt be as distressing! Its hard, everyday is hard but you can do it, and dont let your thoughts ruin something good for you! Best if luck