Recovery is possible

Same lol -- it's awesome! Glad to see we have a few Digimon fans here!

@Rozen Maiden Desu Thank you! Glad this could help! I’m a big digimon nerd haha

@Hi_123 The one above that I responded to? If that's the one you are referring to, then yes, of course I did! Why?

@Hi_123 No, that doesn't ring a bell. I think you have the wrong person, sorry. There are a lot of Anonymouses out there. So, I'm a little confused, was that person telling you that you did or didn't do something with bad intentions? If they said you did something with bad intentions, that sounds kind of mean

@Hi_123 Sure

@Hi_123 I'm sorry this caused you so much distress. I hear you. First of all, if you're having thoughts of being better off de** then I'd recommend talking with someone about that. There are many crisis hotlines, and idk if this particular one is available in your location or not, but I've used the 988 number before. Whichever one you use, they're just there to listen to you if you need it, and that's all they'll do! It's nothing to be worried about! It's a lot less scary than it might initially sound. Regarding the other things you said, I don't think anyone in your situation could figure it out. Trying too hard to figure it out will probably just result in a loop. But I know it's not so easy to stop ruminating... Maybe if you are feeling tense you can try a relaxation exercise? There are some breathing exercises and some exercises where you use your senses. Anyway, I hear you and I'm sorry you're going through that... I'm here if want to keep talking about it! I'm listening!