How is your day.

@Christy Street Could I seek some support? Just asking if something falls along the lines of OCD I dealt with recently. My therapy appointment isn't until Wednesday.

@Anony1314 - I'm here for you—what's been on your mind lately? What are you feeling concerned or unsure about? You're not alone. 💛

@Christy Street I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this like my mind "what would you do" and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow I suppose) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE help. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? Ive been diagnosed with POCD

@Christy Street I responded Ms. Street above

@Christy Street Are you still there

@Anony1314 - I can really feel how much you're hurting right now, and I'm so sorry you're going through this. POCD thoughts can be incredibly distressing—but please remember, OCD thoughts do not define who you are. They don’t reflect your character or your values. I’m really glad you’ve gotten a diagnosis—it’s such an important step toward understanding what you’re dealing with and finding healing. Have you been able to connect with a therapist for support? You deserve help, hope, and relief. 💛

@Christy Street Yes I have. My appointment just isn't until Wednesday, and I'm very distressed not knowing if this is a true OCD episode or not. I just needed some support.

@Anony1314 - What I’m hearing in your concerns is a deep fear that you might hurt a child—but from everything you’ve shared, it sounds like there’s absolutely no desire behind those thoughts. That intense fear and distress are hallmark signs of POCD, and it can be so overwhelming and convincing. But please know: you're not alone, and this can get better with the right support. Do you happen to know if your therapist specializes in ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention)? It’s considered the gold standard for treating OCD, and many people see real relief with it. You deserve support that truly understands what you're going through and helps you reclaim peace. Sending you so much strength and compassion. 💛

@Christy Street Thank you so much. Yes I have a current therapist and I've been doing ERP. It's been helpful, but I just can't stop ruminating over this past episode.

Who’s in your support system right now? Are there family members, friends, or maybe others who really get what it’s like to live with OCD and your specific challenges? I’m so glad you feel safe enough to reach out to this community—it truly means a lot. You’re not alone here, and we’re all rooting for you. 💛

Hang in there—you’re doing the best you can, and that truly matters. If I had a magic wand to make us all healthy, happy, and at peace, I would use it in a heartbeat. I wish it were that easy. But until that magic shows up, please keep leaning on the group and reaching out when you need to. You're not alone, and there’s so much strength in walking this path together. 💛

@Christy Street Thank you. My question is is this the POCD I've been diagnosed with? I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do ("what would you do if you already hurt her" is what my mind said) during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow to nudge her) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE help. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?

@Christy Street I responded my question here ma'am. Sorry in advance

@Christy Street I'm not trying to bother you, but I really just need some support. I'm struggling.

@Anony1314 - You're absolutely not bothering me—I'm really glad you reached out. 💛 POCD often shows up just like you're describing, with intense fear that you might want to or be capable of harming a child in that way. But it's so important to remember: this is fear, not desire. OCD latches onto what matters most to us, twisting it into something terrifying. The very fact that these thoughts cause you such distress is a powerful sign of your values and who you truly are. You're not alone, and you're not broken—this is something you can work through with the right support.

@Christy Street THANK YOU!! Even if it felt so scary and I gave into whatever that thought was, it's still OCD?

@Christy Street Did you see my last response to you?

@Christy Street I'm sorry again. Just wanted to make sure you saw my last response

@Christy Street I really appreciate you

@Anony1314 - I'm so sorry for the delay in getting back to you, and thank you for your patience. 💛 what you are experiencing is checking. Checking is something OCD uses to get relief and evidence for/against the fear. Checking actually increases OCD over time. I want to gently encourage you to begin resisting the urge to check, as hard as that can be. And please make sure to share all of this with your therapist—they can better support you when they know what’s really going on. If your therapist isn’t an OCD specialist, I highly recommend looking into NOCD. They offer care that’s specifically tailored to OCD, and it can make a huge difference. You deserve support that truly understands and empowers you. 💛

@Christy Street Thank you so so much!! So all this is OCD? I deserve to be a mom? And no need to apologize.

@Christy Street Does this fall into the OCD pattern?

I hope your day today is better! If you haven't taken a peek at this article with some tips on managing OCD, give it a look and see what you think. https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/6-best-strategies-to-combat-obsessive-compulsive-disorder