Feeling emotions

I get alot of times that you should let yourself feel your emotions,now I kinda see the emotions i was struggling with before, and the problem might have been that i didnt let myself feel them, and i even think that thats why i experienced panic attacks. However im struggling again cause letting myself feel the emotions made me emotional and throughout the day many times i feel something that i dont know what to do with, giving them attention makes me spiral. Now its about my dog, for two days he vomitted out what he ate and now he doesnt want to eat his food, some food he does want but those are some human food that he shouldnt eat. But my mom brought chicken meat to him, he doesnt want to eat it, and she made something for him but he doesnt wants to eat that either...This makes me really sad cause im afraid i will lose him. I feel really bad when someone who i love is sick and with him its hard cause dogs cant tell you whats the problem. I have a deep sadness about it and fear and I let myself feel it but it gets so bad that it doesnt help me at all. I dont find it helpful, its just makes my day harder. Now again makes me angry if i hear someone saying you should feel all your feelings... Being aware of it, it takes your focus too, i never understood that, how you are aware of something and your focus does not move there... The bird exemple is not true for me, if i go out and hear a bird chirping either im aware of it and it takes my focus,or I enjoy it with the view, or I just notice it and then ignore it,I dont give so much attention to it. Right now birds are chirping, if i put my awarness there i notice them, but if i focus on here that im writing now, i dont notice them,i forget that birds are chirping...Its not like im aware of both... I agree that i should let myself feel more emotions cause alot of problems came there but I dont know where is the line and when im giving too much attention or when im dealing with them too much...

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

I don't mean to be rude, but if your dog is not feeling well wouldn't it be a better idea to have him checked by a vet instead of dwelling on the feelings

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

I didnt wrote it down cause the post is already so long, he was checked a week ago but the vomiting came 2 days ago. He does not show signs of illness, he just doesnt want to eat anything. If theres no sign of illness theres no reason to go to the vet, expecially if we were with him a week ago.

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

@PRIV8 Im just worried that suddenly he will feel sick and if noone is home i cant take him to the vet alone

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

@PRIV8 I get this alot with myself too, if im afraid of an illness, why i dont go to get checked. Because i dont want to be that person who goes to the doctor every week cause he is afraid of something that he noticed. If i continue this, when i will have a child i will go crazy...I know people who are depressed cause they are afraid that their child is sick and they take them to the hospital every week... You need to learn to sit with the feelings and go when you have to go, cause going to the doctor after feeling something to get checked is a compulsion.

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

Ok, now I get it, You're right, I'm sorry

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

About feelings, what you do with them?

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

@PRIV8 I was referring to resisting the compulsion of not getting checked. About the feelings, well, the hard part for us ocd sufferers is to treat them as symptom, because they are fuelled by our anxiety and it's hard to actually grasp this notion.. Not being responsive to the meaning that we attach to them is actually the only way out of ocd though... I'm in the throes of ocd right now, but I was an ocd conqueror myself in the past, and I intend to be again

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

@Anonymous What i noticed on myself was that im afraid of experiencing certain emotions. Like depression, grief, emptyness. I cant handle those feeling and ocd always gets me, or tells me im feeling those and then its hard to actually see what i feel. If i think about it i dont think i ever felt emptiness, but what i felt is different(i think). When i lost my other dog last year, everything was too much and for some minutes i felt nothing but thats normal. It was too much and my body just wanted to chill, i dont see that as emptiness cause people who say that they tell you that they struggle to feel anything, but i can feel fear or even sadness after that, its a different feeling im sure others felt too when things were too much.

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

@Anonymous But i dont like when I can tell that the fellings just makes me stuck and lost in the pain but others say "feel your feelings and dont try to make them go away" i cant just sit with it and feel it cause it feeds itself... and then people say do something that helps you go through it or what makes you feel better, and im like you say to the same to a compulsion... that doing the same thing is a compulsion... I dont think you have to sit with every emotion you get or be aware of it... for me being aware of something takes my focus away and now im focusing on that thing

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

@PRIV8 Alot of my spinning is about "did i reacted the right way or im just pushing it away" and then it feels like im pushing it away. The worse part is i might do and i cant tell it cause ocd is playing with me... I always feel guilt that im pushing away my feelings and not actually let myself feel them witch feeds this obsession more

PRIV8

Date posted: 20w

What is this feeling that i feel?

For 3 days I had a feeling that came up pretty often and I cant name it, I dont know what is it and the more i try to see what is it the more i feel worse. Usually letting feeling be and letting yourself experience it helps but not with this. I find myself feel grumpier, triggered and more angry. Its a mix of fear, but then i get angry too and I dont find letting myself experience it helpful cause I just stuck there. It feels like its in my chest and when it gets triggered it makes things hard to enjoy. I tried to be kind with myself and see what causes it but trying to be kind with myself triggers this annoying feeling and it just gets worse... i dont know what helps thats why i ask your help, if you ever experienced this... also i what i almlst forgot to mention, what is really important is that i became really sensitive to every thought, and any thought can trigger this feeling or any thought can trigger a negative feeling that will trigger this feeling. And honestly the "just accept it and let yourself feel what you feel" doesnt helps here cause i find myself really angry that i have to let myself feel the emotions that are triggered by these intrusive thoughts...

PRIV8

Date posted: 11w

Ocd and emotions

I have alot of problems with this and I question alot if I do avoid my emotions cause today everyone says to "feel your emotions, let them be" but it just makes me be stuck with suffering. Currently I have a problem at my job, it's really stressful and i feel like everyone thinks im stupid and a bad person and it's hard, I struggle with negative emotions and I rumminate alot about the things, what couldve happened,what will happen and sometimes it makes me feel helpless cause idk what to do. But when it happens I don't let myself feel helpless, I don't know why you should let yourself feel anything like hopelessness,helplesnees,or let yourself tell any story that will not help you. I acknowledge it that it came up, but I won't let it to continously be there. I never understood that when you have these feelings, sitting with them makes you just follow the story that is unhealthy. I feel things that are unhealthy for me and i tried to sit with it and made me feel worse being stuck with that emotion. I start to think that people who actually has avoidance problems they dont notice how they feel, when I do notice I just choose not to go on that path. I question grief too alot. Everyone grieves differently so that's why is difficult but I don't like when people say that grief will never end and if you feel better about your loss you are just lying to yourself... Ofcourse you will never feel happy about anything you lost in your life. When i dealt with grief I noticed it, back then i thought okay i have to sit with the pain but then it got worse and worse and I felt like im stuck in my pain. Then I decided I have to move and im not 100%over, i dont even know what that means cause as I said you will never feel happy about any loss you experienced,but thats a different thing, you can still live your life with that,but if its been years and you still think life sucks and nothing is good then youre stuck with grief. This is not judging anyone who is not over grief, But it's problematic for me when I say i wont let this emotion to rule my day, and then i feel like im supressing it... or when people say "just let it be there" then my focus is on that being there, so to change your focus to your life you have to ignore the feelings, and people say "no,you dont" but thats what you have to do... To choose that you will live your life and you will focus on something else no matter what means that you will ignore the feelings, you can still notice it but you give no power to them. That's called ignoring it... I have to learn what supressing feelings really means cause everytime I try to live my life I say i supress my emotions cause it feels like that. I hope someone will read this, either will help him or he will help me understand things more, so if you read this, thank you for your time! :)

PRIV8

Date posted: 10w

Im feel really bad

I feel really anxious since i decided that i will go get a blood test. Today i went to get a haircut and the whole time i felt like i will faint, vomit, i dont feel good and it was horrible. I came home and started to read about how to deal with emotions. I found a really good article, and I started doing the work. I thought that im avoiding my emotions and I dont now what i actually feel so I went inside and after some time a thought and a feeling came up that said "i wish i could tell this to someone who would listen to me and nurture me" and i felt so good thinking about this. But then I started thinking maybe i should go to therapy cause noone will listen me here, and i started to feel sad and it got worse and worse. Its been hours now and my mind keeps thinking about "noone listens to me" and it keeps me feeling sad and depressed. This is is why i dont like to think about my emotions. Now I dont know should i act on this strong emotion, should i run and talk to someone? That feels like a compulsion. I felt this before,alot of times when i struggle i feel like i wish i could tell this to someone, and alot of times i do,but i dont get the reaction what i want. I dont like that we should act on every deep feelings we feel. If i feel this than the only answer to heal this feeling is to run to somebody and talk about my feelings. I dont like it that now nonstop i feel this and think about this and i cant move on.

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