A nasty thought came into my head and it's so hard not to get angry or distressed or anything because it's so nasty and I try to tell myself it's just a thought let it pass. But how can I let it pass when it's so disgusting like how

Sometimes it's hard to see past the thoughts but I appreciate your words. Definitely helped me back seeing I can do this

I'm only doing an online cbt course but it hasn't started yet. Even if the thought is "I want to do this" or i wish i could do this is it still part of the ocd. I know i dont want to but sometimes when it's a thought of me saying it I get so paranoid that maybe this is the real me

@ScarlettA Here for you. We will get through this just right now it seems like I'm stuck in this nasty mud

@ScarlettA Mainly pocd but they havent told me that's what it was they just said it was ocd. I also get it with past events with stuff I've done or said but I'm figuring out whether its ocd or just me feeling guilty. Wby

@ScarlettA Mine did too. I feel like I'm questioning everything I do everything i say everything I've ever done. Are you trying any therapy or have you talked to anyone?

@ScarlettA I read a lot aswell probably too much and made myself worse. I talked to advisors and doctors who said I had severe paranoia. And then I signed up for online cbt who talked to me and said it was ocd. So I should be starting that in a few weeks until I see a psychiatrist in december. It's just a waiting game

@ScarlettA Why are you scared? X

@ScarlettA They have to find what's best and if you try it and it doesnt work theres loads of other options but think positively that it could help you. I dont think they want to put me on medication bc of previous use of substances.

@ScarlettA Yeah I'm trying to stay on the right track. Meditation helps me a lot but sometimes we always have those setbacks. Headspace is something I use all the time but I'll definitely give the Jonathan grayson one a try. Thankyou :)

@ScarlettA It's a difficult thing but I find anything but water and juice makes me anxious now. Do you still struggle with it if you dont mind me asking?

@ScarlettA Maybe it would be best to go seek help for it. We want to see you get better not worse

@ScarlettA Same Here. Any support you need I'm here :)

I try to I practice mindfulness but I sometimes it's hard to accept it as a thought and refocus especially when it sounds like it's me saying I want to do the things. If it goes "I wanna do this or do that" I just wanna go back to my regular thought process:(