What is this feeling that i feel?

For 3 days I had a feeling that came up pretty often and I cant name it, I dont know what is it and the more i try to see what is it the more i feel worse. Usually letting feeling be and letting yourself experience it helps but not with this. I find myself feel grumpier, triggered and more angry. Its a mix of fear, but then i get angry too and I dont find letting myself experience it helpful cause I just stuck there. It feels like its in my chest and when it gets triggered it makes things hard to enjoy. I tried to be kind with myself and see what causes it but trying to be kind with myself triggers this annoying feeling and it just gets worse... i dont know what helps thats why i ask your help, if you ever experienced this... also i what i almlst forgot to mention, what is really important is that i became really sensitive to every thought, and any thought can trigger this feeling or any thought can trigger a negative feeling that will trigger this feeling. And honestly the "just accept it and let yourself feel what you feel" doesnt helps here cause i find myself really angry that i have to let myself feel the emotions that are triggered by these intrusive thoughts...

Ocd&me09

Date posted: 4d ago

I am actually going through this now. I can’t shake off this odd feeling. I feel sad but then I don’t I am angry and anything is triggering me lately. I just cannot put my finger on it. What I do know is that my OCD has been loud and has thrown me into a spiral lately. So hard but continue to hang in there🙂

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4d ago

Hi, I hear you! I really do. OCD can be really tough, and it’s frustrating when you’re told to just "sit with it" or "let it be," especially when everything feels so intense. It’s okay to feel stuck, angry, or overwhelmed by the emotions and thoughts coming up. When people say to "sit with it," it doesn’t mean you just have to let yourself stay stuck in the feeling. It’s more about moving forward while those emotions and fears are present, knowing they’re there, but not letting them stop you. It’s not easy, but that’s the way through it. I just wanted to acknowledge how hard it is and that you’re not alone in dealing with this. Are you seeing a therapist?

PRIV8

Date posted: 4d ago

When it counts pushing it away? Cause I can see it. If you want to focus so much on the present that means you have to slowly push away the feeling by focusing on the present

AnonymityK

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4d ago

@PRIV8 Focusing on the present isn’t about pushing anxiety away—it’s about allowing it to be there while choosing to engage in what truly matters. Pushing it away would mean trying to force myself to feel differently or doing things only as a way to get rid of the anxiety. But when I focus on the present in a way that aligns with my values, I’m not trying to escape my feelings—I’m just not letting them dictate my actions. For example, if I go on a hike because I genuinely enjoy it and value being in nature, I’m staying present with something meaningful to me. But if I start hiking just to get rid of anxiety, then it becomes a compulsion—because my intention is to control or eliminate the feeling rather than accepting that it’s there. The key difference is whether I’m acting from a place of values or from a place of avoidance.

tig.chi

Date posted: 4d ago

I don't know that I fully understand what you are experiencing. But I am familiar with feeling very angry at having to feel feelings. My way of "sitting" with the anger is to express it - often by talking it out to the universe. Like, "really, guys?"

PRIV8

Date posted: 4d ago

I stopped for a minute and asked myself what i feel. I realized it might be that one day i was tired, it was one of those days when you are more sensitive, and for some reason I got hit by alot of intrusive thoughts and emotions and because i was already in a tired state, It was worse and i reacted bad too, with this angry/sad reaction. I was angry cause I felt like no matter what i do it wont help cause now im tired and that means it will br like this everytime when im tired, so this triggered me. I wasnt able to deal with the emotions well, it went away but now everytime something triggers me this angry/sad emotion comes up. It gets worse when i feel like it happened cause i push away feelings, and then i try to feel it fully but it doesnt leads me anywhere but staying stuck in that feeling. I think maybe i reacted in a bad way and now my brain sends me that feeling cause I made that a dangerous thing and it wants to remind me that i should avoid that. But this is my interpretation of it, maybe its not that...

PRIV8

Date posted: 4d ago

@PRIV8 I need help for how to respond when im tired cause its just automatic that i react with "this is too much, i cant handle it" and i became desperate. I realize that its not good and i want to change it but i still try to change it desperatelly which feeds it more, then i try to be kind with myself and i try to love myself more but i try that desperately too... I cant stop that desperate reaction for some reason which makes me angry and that why it gets worse.

tig.chi

Date posted: 4d ago

When ocd is talking at me loudly i am usually anxious or upset, so i tell myself that I need to calm my nervous system before anything else. So I ask myself what I can do to feel physically better in that moment... soft blanket? Cup of tea? A walk? Talking to someone? Guided relaxation? It doesn't make the feelings, or ocd thoughts, go away but it reminds me that the problem is ocd and that I can feel better even if I don't solve the problem that ocd is throwing at me.

Ironborn

Date posted: 23w ago

Is this beyond ocd?

I'm reaching out in hopes of finding others who might relate to my experiences or offer insights. I'm dealing with a complex interplay of OCD, depression, and existential anxiety, and I'm struggling to make sense of it all. Here's what I'm experiencing: I have OCD with various manifestations, along with episodes of depression. I find myself in a cyclical pattern where, after a few weeks, I start to remind myself about my depressive tendencies. This reminder seems to trigger a cycle that actually makes me feel more depressed or at least more aware of depressive symptoms. When this happens, I often experience feelings of nihilism and existential dread. I try to think about my family - my two young boys and my wife - to find motivation or a sense of purpose, but this strategy often backfires, making me feel even more anxious and depressed. I constantly check my feelings, wondering if they're depressive or anxious. At the same time, I fear that my feelings of anxiety and panic might spiral out of control. I think about my emotions and thoughts on a meta-level, which means I'm not just experiencing feelings, but I'm also constantly analyzing the fact that I'm experiencing them. There's an existential component to my struggles, a fear of depression and anxiety itself, and a sense that this might be a self-fulfilling prophecy. Perhaps most frustratingly, I often have feelings, thoughts, or sensory experiences that I can't explain or put into words. I feel like I've never heard of these before, which leaves me feeling deeply misunderstood. Does anyone else experience something similar? How do you cope with this complex web of symptoms and experiences? I'm particularly interested in hearing from those who've found ways to break the cycle of meta-cognition and self-fulfilling anxiety. Any insights, shared experiences, or strategies would be deeply appreciated. Thank you for your time and understanding.

Anonymous 25#

Date posted: 15w ago

Weird ?

Has anyone ever just felt weird? It’s hard to explain but I just feel weird lately. I usually suffer with harm OCD and I feel like lately I’m not reacting to things I normally would. There’s certain things that will trigger me a little but then other times (like over the last few days) it’s like I feel nothing. I’ll get thoughts and because I don’t feel the physical sensation in my chest or get very emotional like I normally would it’s weird to me. Does this mean I’m liking the thoughts now? Or like I’m comfortable with those actions happening? I’m so confused. Has anyone ever gone through this?

Chels0212

Date posted: 10w ago

Intrusive thoughts

I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅

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