Feeling guilty

So I’m a migraine sufferer and this morning I had a migraine that wouldn’t go away. (it actually started last night) I had to call into work bc I absolutely cannot function when my migraines are that bad. I can barely drive, especially when it’s dark outside when I leave in the mornings. The thing is I just called in a few weeks ago for the same reason. I can’t stop feeling guilt about calling in so soon after the previous attack even though there was nothing else I could do. I took more medicine than I was even supposed to and still tried to get ready but couldn’t make it through the process. It makes me feel even worse bc we already struggle with having enough staff some days. I want to be able to enjoy my weekend but it’s hard when it keeps popping in my head periodically :/

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

I get these migraines, too, and have taken mote tylenol or motrin than inwas,supposed to becsuse of the psin but also because I had to functkon for my nufs, etc.... I would not feel guilty for calling in when you are sick. Thry give you sick dsys, right? Migraines are just awful amd I cannot take the pain. Sometimes, time is the only thing that really ends up taking the pain away completely cuz the medicine at best dulls it for a,short period of time. Ever try steam shower/bath or very hit wash cloth (not jot enough to burn you). I find that brings relief! Sometimes I get dinus headaches, too, snd until I can blow my nose no amount of medicine will help. Somehow just being able to blow my nose a bit takes the sinus pressure away...maybe not all at once but it definitely helps. I hopeyou get relueffrom.these headaches!!! God bless you!!! Please do not feel guilty!!!🙏🙏🙏😊😊😊 ..

kaylaxo

Date posted: 20w

Benadryl ended up helping me (I’ve heard they actually put it in a cocktail of meds when you go to the ER). I took that after I called in. I didn’t take it last night bc it wasn’t as bad and I didn’t think I’d need it although looking back I wish I had. It escalated very quickly this morning. I’m going to finally just try getting on prescription meds again. I’ve been prescribed a couple different ones in the past but they didn’t work. My doctor said if the most recent meds he put me on don’t work I’m going to have to have an MRI done which I’m terrified of bc I’m very claustrophobic. But I’m just going to have to finally face it

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

Well hopefully you wont have to do tjat. How long ago did he prescribe migraine medicines ? I really hope they work for you. Never heatd of using Benadryl. Intetesting.

kaylaxo

Date posted: 20w

@Anonymous Honestly it was a couple years ago. I’ve been avoiding going back bc I’m scared of having to do an MRI. I know it’s likely not anything serious like a tumor or something bc migraines run in my family and I’ve gotten them for like 15 years now and have been physically healthy otherwise But yeah I actually discovered diphenhydramine helps by accident! Years ago I had a migraine I couldn’t get rid of and I took Dramamine for the nausea. Well if you didn’t know, Dramamine has diphenhydramine in it. I noticed my head stopped hurting shortly after and looked it up to see if there was any connection or if it was just a coincidence and that’s how I found out that diphenhydramine not only helps migraines but they give it to you for migraines in the ER among other meds lol

Anonymous

Date posted: 20w

What is diphenhydramine and dramine?

🖤BrokenChaos🖤

Date posted: 24w

>> Venting

TRIGGER WARNING Made on Sunday: So, my brother just came home today from a 4 month stay because he had gone manic and made some major threats. He had attacked someone too…. So, I was super anxious. He seems to be alright, but I’m still worried that he’ll hurt my parents or pets, and that I’ll snap if he does. Maybe I’m overthinking it?? I just don’t wanna go into a rage episode and hurt him, because he is my baby brother. *sigh* Since I was anxious earlier, I kept passing out repeatedly and started seizing afterwards. I’m just exhausted and sad and feel bad because I get scared and frustrated and tell my fiancé to break up with me. I know he won’t I’m just scared I’ll hurt everyone around me unintentionally. I’m tired of being in constant pain, I’m tired of the constant emotional rollercoasters, I’m tired of not being able to do or help with pretty much anything; I’m just tired. I don’t mean to bring anyone down, I just needed to vent. And I’m sorry I’m not on here all the time, I have a very strict schedule. And that’s another thing!! I feel so helpless because I can’t do anything. Mom gets frustrated because I refuse to do things or have to do them later and I wish she could just understand. I am doing my damndest to even stand up. I have so much vertigo (dizziness) from the pain I’m in and it really takes a toll. I want to help, to do extra like I used to. But I keep falling and the pain becomes unbearable. The pain meds aren’t working and so that’s gone out the window. I guess it just hurts because she gives me that look like I’m supposed to know what’s going on. I know she’s stressed with having to do everything, taking care of my brother, and her insane workload, so I’m giving her some slack, but it’s still hard. I wish she new how bad I work just to live my life.

toni2137

Date posted: 24w

mornin

i woke up with my heart racing this morning. i feel like the Lord wouldn’t treat me that way. i feel guilty and i feel like i just keep messing up at every step in my walk w the Lord. i literally just woke up feeling bad. i hadn’t even done anything. i had just opened my eyes!! i’m glad i got called into work so i can do something to take my mind off of the thoughts.

bkelp213

Date posted: 22w

Can’t function for all my guilt

I’ve done things in the past few years that I’m not proud of - only a couple of things I can think of and they didn’t directly hurt anyone at least with is relieving (but maybe indirectly they sort of did or could’ve which makes me hate myself because why did I do that… *how* could I do that…) If I could back and stop those things from happening, I would. I may not have thought about what I was doing at the time, so I didn’t really recognize that they weren’t okay, but that doesn’t excuse them, and I would smack some sense into my past self if I were able. I feel like if anyone knew what I‘ve done, they wouldn’t want anything to do with me. They’d write me off as worthless. And maybe they should to be honest. Now yet another thing has come up - I haven’t done anything, but I had an intrusive thought pop up that made me *think* about doing something and this would be unforgivable in my opinion. Though, to be honest, the things I’ve done before are also somewhat unforgivable in my opinion… 😞 Regardless, I don’t want to do it because I don’t think it’s okay, but I worry deep down that I do. Or that I’m looking for an excuse to make it okay to do. I don’t know, it’s complicated. And I’m upset I even thought about it. I wish I had never seen the thing that triggered that intrusive thought. Yet another thing I would stop if I could. I’ve tried to not think about it or focus on it, but it doesn’t work. Even if it goes away, it just comes back again. I just keep thinking about it and it’s overwhelming. Anyway all of the guilt of this is killing me. I feel like an irredeemably terrible person and it makes me want to give up. I can’t get on with life because it’s paralyzing. I don’t know what’s wrong with me, and at this point, it feels like I don’t deserve to just move on. I can’t live with myself and I feel like I don’t deserve anything anymore. I know a lot of this is probably OCD, but I’m not sure all of it is and I don’t know what to do… if I spoke to a therapist about it, I don’t think I could bring myself to say what I’ve done or what thoughts I’ve had. But if I was told to move on by someone who didn’t know the truth, I would worry they wouldn’t really say that if they knew. Agh, it’s all just a mess 😞

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