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@Dreamydream Yes my brain right now is saying “ yes I want to harm my brother “ I feel crazy :(

@ocdsuxxx I understand how u feel - I go from feeling numb and not emotions to tearing up later in the day

@Dreamydream Me too :(

@OneDayAtATimee Really?

@Dreamydream Yup! :) It’s a common experience. Sometimes when you have the same type of thought for a long time- it becomes a bit repetitive and boring and it starts to feel less anxiety provoking, especially if you’ve been doing ERP around it. But that phenomenon itself freaks ppl out because they start to think “well if I’m not anxious does this mean I like the thought?” It’s all OCD trickery 😄

@OneDayAtATimee I started therapy but we haven’t started erp yet… is it still common for me to feel like i don’t care and my emotions are low? It’s like telling me oh well u wouldn’t care if u did these terrible things and it’s not making me anxious but i don’t like the feeling of not caring it makes me feel like im becoming bad.

@Dreamydream Yup a lack of anxiety is common 👍 Isn’t it so contradictory of Ocd that we desperately want that anxiety to go away but when it actually does go away- we worry and want it to come back? 😄 Ocd applies to both situations- both worrying over having anxiety and not having it. It sucks because either way we feel miserable but that’s the sneaky nature of this disorder

@OneDayAtATimee Yes it’s so weird - do you have harm OCD?

@Dreamydream Relatable af

@Dreamydream I used to suffer from Harm Ocd, POCD, and suicidal OCD all around the same time- but I recovered from those themes 3 years ago using ERP, ACT, community support, and positive distractions :)

@OneDayAtATimee That’s amazing! How long were you struggling for prior to recovering?

@OneDayAtATimee Amazing !!!!

@Dreamydream Aw thanks so much! 😇 I remember having harm Ocd thoughts even when I was around 13 years old. That faded away idk how. But when I turned 21, I went through a stressful breakup and Harm Ocd randomly came back so aggressively and I got POCD and suicidal Ocd for the 1st time. I went through ERP with a therapist for only a couple months and I’ve never struggled with POCD or harm Ocd ever since, thank God!!👍 But unfortunately OCD switched themes to relationship Ocd and moral scrupulosity, which is what I’m dealing with now 😅 But this- I’m determined to beat also!

@ocdsuxxx Thank you so much! 🙏🥳

@OneDayAtATimee Proud of you!! You will beat this as well 💪🏼 I struggled with harm OCD for like 6 months 8 years ago and recently like a month ago i relapsed

@Dreamydream Thanks so much :) I really appreciate that. You’ll get through it too! ❤️ Trust in the ERP process and you’ll gain an even happier life than you ever had previously