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I currently have chronic fatigue syndrome partly from rocd, that relationship is over so it’s gone. But to get better from this I have to not worry. Anxiety is a big part of CFS for everyone. During this time I got very close to God, but lately I’ll feel He’s gone. Before that I’ve been speaking w Christian healing ministry and they basically told me most things are occult. All music, Hollywood, martial arts(I love martial arts) and paying attention to any of it is inviting demons. Also 8% of Christian’s are going to heaven due to multiple ( and his personally) near death experiences. I feel I’m seeking out therapy and coaching to heal from CFS and I feel God is completely gone. I can’t pray. I feel as though I’m going against his will and not sticking with the healing ministry and taking it into my own hands. Just in fear and don’t know which way to turn

Peace2023

Date posted: 19w

It sucks to be in the depths of spiritual despair and how isolating the feeling that god’s presence is gone can be. I was once on a very devoted path with what I was told was the “right way” of doing things, only to eventually realize there is no one true path, just the path that is right for you. I used to obsess and seek reassurance about heaven too from Christian counselors and all that went to hell when I realize how my fear kept me stuck in the OCD cycle. I’ve been on a deconstruction journey for several years now and I’ve come to find peace by seeking support from organizations such as “Recovering from Religion” https://www.recoveringfromreligion.org/ They’ve helped provide answers to questions that I used to obsess about and I’m actively working through the guilt that was so deeply planted into my being, because I’ve chosen to deviate from my religious upbringing and cultivate a spiritual identity that feels and fits right for me and my life. I’m currently in therapy to continue to untangle that guilt and fear, so know that it takes time. And as much as we want immediate answers and certainty, know that it takes time and although that may not be what you want to hear as OCD craves certainty and immediate answers, know that you will be fine as you learn to live with uncertainty and explore new ways of thinking and understanding. Whatever path you choose to explore, whether that includes your version of god or not, must come from you and not guilt from this Christian ministry. OCD and CFS are real conditions that aren’t a byproduct of not believing or feeling god’s presence (not sure if you believed that but just thought I I should clarify just in case). Also martial arts are not demon inviting activities (what nonsense!), so if that brings you joy continue to partake in martial arts activities. What the church ministry says to you feels real right now, but that’s only because they are using fear to convince you and want all your attention devoted to their agenda. As you continue on your journey of taking life into your own hands, you will come to experience more peace and clarity and no longer be driven by fear and false information. If you believe god is with you, then god is with you even when god’s presence isn’t strong. If you’re open to the idea of exploring life without god, just know there too is peace and strength there.

Anonymous

Date posted: 19w

Thank you for that thought out response. Yea I actually came to Christianity later although the seed was planted at a very young age. It’s just a 1-2 person healing ministry I found on YouTube from somebody who had a near death experience. His experience along with others’ kinda struck the fear in me about the supposed number of people going to hell. These people don’t really have anything to gain from me or anything and there experiences seem very authentic. Maybe I should take it w a grain of salt but pretty difficult. As for the martial arts this guy was saying that since they all stem from other worldly spiritual practices -that would deem them occult practices. As for practicing them today is that connecting me to that spiritual practice therefor inviting entities to me? Idk. As for now what I do know is there is no condemnation in Christ. I consider myself a baby Christian and yup a life’s journey.

Krome_da

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 22w

Pretty Tough Morning

So I’m not sure how many/if any of you are Christians, but I’m assuming this can still make sense to some of you. This morning has been rough. I’m constantly thinking, “am I saved? Have I never been saved and I’m tricking myself into thinking I am? When I’m listening to Christian music am I doing for the right reasons? Is it too late for me?”. Things I know the truthful answers to but yet I still think these thoughts. I don’t understand why. Why do I constantly think about these “what if”’s? My heart always feels so heavy and I feel as if I need to talk to God right then and there to make it stop and go away. But then am I talking to the Lord for the wrong reasons? And the cycle repeats. Thankfully, day one of my therapy is tonight and I’m hoping to find at least a little clarity on this stuff. I’ve had OCD for 7 years and I don’t even know how it works. Any advice?

jesus.is.fre...

Date posted: 5w

CHRISTIANS WITH OCD PLS HELP HELP HELP

I dont want this anymore. I can't do this every day, 24 hours a day. I even have nightmares of it. I feel bullied by my own mind. I am convinced it's a demonic spirit, or a stronghold. I am not sure. Whatever God is speaking to me I'm not getting it. I feel sick and depleted. I am afraid of loosing my teeth or something because of grinding so hard in my sleep. I gain weight even though I'm eating right and taking steps purely from stess; I never knew a person could be so stressed. My eyes are twitching, my skin is horrible, my thoughts never stop. I have intrusive thoughts of "giving my ..... to ". I'm not going to fill in the blanks because my mind won't let me. I dont understand what God wants and what He is saying to me. Does anyone else with Religious OCD experience the same thing? I bring this to Christ daily but I'm so so desperate and alone and scared. My whole body is in pain from stress, like it's clenched. I know Christ is in control, but dear God in Heaven just answer me already. Set me free. I'm turning 22 in a week. God just set me free.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5w

My mind seems to be imploding in on itself

So, alot has changed. I'm Christian and currently believe we are in the end of times. It's changed my whole perspective on life. I quit my job and moved back in with family, starting to go to church, apologized to those I hurt except, one person who I talked to two family members and they told me to delete the message and with my other apology ( that i also believed was God telling me to confess in 2020) i lied at some parts because of shame and confusing myself most likely intentionally. I confessed everything to my dad and he says since i turned from it, repented, that i need to let it go and continue forward. Since then, my minds been saying that I'm outside of God's will and everything's gone down hill. I had also prayed that God exposed me and now it's like all this evil and wickedness that feels like it's coming out of my heart settles into my chest. I've prayed to God, worshipped to God, but thoughts and images of being sent to hell or my loved ones pops into my head and I've gone to sleep twice each night accepting the fact that because of me not doing so may have doomed me and my loved ones and I feel scared that I got so tired and stopped fighting it. I've had ocd since I was 7 but it just is so scary because it's hitting down to the wire and I'm scared that I was never a child of God at all I mean I have iniquity I thought I repented for but people I love still struggle with what I've done and I prayed for them and tried to help them and suggest therapy but I haven't did what I could to make it right like I should've. But these images and thoughts they're horrible. I feel like I'm against God truly and I'm like Lord change the circumstances and I won't resist so that I can preach Your word and everyday I feel like I'm gambling. It's like every thought is biblical for the most part. I don't want to kill myself cuz what if I have a chance that God will have mercy on me but....

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