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what do normal people even think about? i feel like all i do is worry and fight with myself, for months on end now, i forgot what it feels like to think like a normal person
what do normal people even think about? i feel like all i do is worry and fight with myself, for months on end now, i forgot what it feels like to think like a normal person
I wasn’t aware how much weight I was carrying with OCD until starting therapy. I knew it was rough and debilitating…but when I started tackling thought patterns and compulsions it was like a car was lifted off my shoulders. It’s possible to feel more normal with therapy and ERP, I would highly recommend it!
I don’t really know what’s “normal” in terms of thought patterns or internal mental matters. People without OCD may not struggle with intrusive thoughts, but they could also have their own struggles. Are you working with a therapist right now, who can help you sort through these feelings?
I totally hear what you're saying, but I'd like to challenge that sentiment by asking: what even is normal? Sure, folks with OCD get stuck on hamster wheels of deep unhappiness and obsessiveness that other people don't... but that doesn't mean other people aren't worrying about all sorts of shit, too. Everyone is suffering in their own way, so just try to remind yourself that even because you are different -- WE are different -- than the average person without OCD, that doesn't make us any less normal. Suffering is part of the human condition, OCD is just our unique, specific brand of suffering.
Good question
It sounds incredibly exhausting to feel like you're constantly battling worry and have lost touch with what "normal" thinking feels like. That sense of being consumed by worry is something many people struggle with, and it can feel very isolating. What I can say is that "normal" people have all kinds of thoughts, including intrusive ones as well. The main difference is the ability to move on from the thought, rather than getting stuck on it. We are here to help at NOCD if you are able to reach out!
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
I’ve been feeling so disconnected lately, like I’m not even living my own life. It’s like I’m being controlled by someone else, and I have no say in what’s happening. It’s hard to put this feeling into words, but it’s like I’m here physically, but mentally, I’m just... not. Every day feels like a struggle. I wake up afraid of what’s coming next, almost like I’m bracing myself for the next bad thing to happen. Sometimes, I don’t even want to get out of bed because it feels pointless, like I’m stuck in this loop of fear and doubt. I keep questioning everything, life, my purpose, my choices, and it’s exhausting. I just want to feel like myself again, to feel like I have control, like I’m really here.
I struggle so bad with intrusive thoughts. They can be so bad that I'll cry because I KNOW that's not how I feel or want to do. (Too embarrassed to say what they're about) I'll constantly try to figure out why I have them, and constantly figure out what they mean, causing me to constantly circle around and around. I had to get on anxeity meds, which helped a little but the thoughts still happen. How do you help yourself with this? How do you know that you're just not some physcopath? 😅
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