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@Mk3 Probably does lol in fact I’d guarantee it. Difference it he knows that’s junk email and discards it. We can’t control our thoughts we only control which ones deserve our attention. The thought I had yesterday about using a wrench to unalive someone? Meh, disregard ( after I also figured out if I knew enough about true crime to get away with it, which I decided I might) but it wasn’t an important thought just an entertaining one lol so it’s in the brain trash. I once heard someone say “ it’s your second thought and you’re first action that matter” meaning everyone has wild crazy insane thoughts first, they don’t matter “ my boyfriend is ugly”- crazy first thought, doesn’t matter “ no he’s not I’m not spazing a bit right now, or maybe he is but I don’t care I’m gonna go kiss that monster” second thought and first action- what actually matters.

@Mk3 - You need to recognize that just becuase you thought it, doesn't mean its what you actually believe. That is the insidious nature of OCD. It makes us think thoughts that "FEEL" real but in reality, they are not, they are just intangible chemical signals in our brain. You can THINK he is ugly and not actually believe it. Thats why its so important to not pay attention to them. People with various OCD themes think WILD things, about killing someone, harming children, animals, themselves, having false memories about things they never did. OCD is the master of deception, so when you experience thoughts that cause you SIGNIFICANT distress its becuase its a thought that doesn't match your true, base nature and beliefs, and THAT is OCD and you beat OCD with starving it of its food source, which is compulsions and attention. you roll with the thoughts becuase they aren't important. You sit with the anxiety to teach your body its not dangerous, its hella uncomfortable, buts its not an actual threat. You train you body to stop responding to the smoke alarms in your head that are going off like crazy even tho there is NO fire.

@Mk3 That’s still ok. Thoughts are just thoughts. You’re allowed to think what ever you want, your mind is a safe place and it’s no one else’s business but yours.

@Mk3 1000%

@Mk3 You can also think he’s ugly and feel like it’s real but it’s not, it’s ocd messing with your mind. If ocd lies were easily realized, ocd would not be such a distressing disorder.

@Mk3 - everyone with OCD thinks like this. Iv had thoughts about harming children, killing people, iv wished family members to not be alive anymore, hurting my pets, memories of cheating on my husband. do these make me a bad person? nope. thoughts don't have any weight on a person as thoughts are not in our active control. iv even thought my husband was ugly. iv called him a grub of a man in my head. the important thing iv don't act on my thoughts because i don't want to, they don't line up with what i believe in. Its called " ego-dystonic" thinking, you can look it up, but in short terms it means your thoughts don't reflect what you actually think or believe. its a hallmark of OCD. everyone has them, but only people with OCD attach meaning to them. OCD thoughts are like mental hallucinations, they might seem real, tangible, and represent meaning, but they are, in fact, not real, and have no meaning.