False memories

@httpet Hi your advice seems helpful…Hi pls pls if you see this pls tell me how to deal with this… pls Pls ..so my bf and i are doing are masters degree and after finishing our exam today we were supposed to have lunch which we do but he wanted to hangout with his friends and also smoke a little so said we could meet for dinner i was upset cause i wanted to spend some time with him but it didnt bother me too much what bothered me is why did he not call or text to see if i had eaten or spoke to me a little after he was done cause he knew i had lunch by myself and he should have asked right? And if i dont call he wont call only and like not even after 4 hours of not talking ask me if i had eaten or i had slept or spoke to me before i went to sleep also.. i didnt so he didnt as well? That means he doesnt care and no matter what is said his actions should have been better right? Why was i not prioritised like what? And also like not one text or call and means he doesnt care again cause all other bfs sat with their gfs but mine just left and also yes expectations and i shouldn’t compare but but these are bare minimum basic expectations and basic comparison and these point towards bigger issues and red flags of him not caring and just because i have ocd doesnt mean i can to feel okay push it under ocd as a coping mechanism when its clearly not and i can feel it and even anyone reading would say its not right cause i am talking about bare minimum concerns not a what if or ocd driven thought ocd can exaggerate it but with the problems i have had and mentioned here and also this is it ocd? And if i am not okay and he just cant care and i say i will adjust one why should i and second i am not able to and have fights everyday so this means what not do it and cant both cant right? Pls help me and yes i can ask for reassurance cause its habit doesnt mean it ocd right? That my brain does to calm down cause i am scared to leave him?

@Brave through Hi I’m sorry but I’m honestly a bit confused on this post. As helpful as my advice seems sadly I don’t have the answers to everything. I would get in touch with your therapist , they’re more qualified than me

@httpet I understand but is it even ocd to begin with or the wrong relationship?

@Brave through At the end of the day, if you want to be with your partner love is a choice and not always a feeling, especially where ocd is involved x

@Twilightprincessx But idk if this is ocd anymore cause Just the bare minimum is being done and i have to ask and not just get and saying Has more fun with other people someone would treat me better and with more love Someone who is all about me and even if not at least more than this and this is my requirement and i am settling and not insta stuff i see and compare but what i actually want and feel so unhappy always and pretending to be happy scared when we will fight and like good days seem like i am gonna have a bad day soon scared to say so many things to him as well cause idk what can trigger him and this is unhealthy for me and i am being subdued will lose myself here …complaining he will never change bad and sad and unhapoy and toxic relationship one good day all bad again and mot icd actual problem so is so and should brekaup cause never okay and go away and if so settle and unhapoy fights everyday and blow out of proportion one day and this is all i am feeling and like know so means is true and now what then? What do i do? If doesnt sort or change ? And like idk i am so lost pls help me i know this is long but you know ocd well pls tell me..🥺🙏🏻

@Brave through Have you told him that you’re not happy with how he’s behaving?

@Twilightprincessx Yeah i did i did but idk whats happening? Pls help me i wrote everything in the message is this rocd?

@Brave through I can’t answer that because I honestly don’t know 💔