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POCD
This popped up randomly. I know logically I’m not one as I’ve only ever dated my age range and I don’t believe there’s a such thing as “latent philia” but goodness is this one weird
This popped up randomly. I know logically I’m not one as I’ve only ever dated my age range and I don’t believe there’s a such thing as “latent philia” but goodness is this one weird
Hello, OCD will use anything to make people feel uncertain to encourage them to engage in compulsions. This is especially true with attraction, because it is hard to find tangible evidence for attraction outside of feelings or bodily sensations. Also, feelings are already difficult to define and rarely provide a clear cause for their presence. Here's a video that talks in more depth about POCD. I hope it is helpful. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bg-VdyA9MoQ
yeah, like with any other theme, it will try it's hardest to convince you of it even when it makes literally no sense and there's no reason to think it. it's tough. sorry you're dealing with it too :(
@moon027097 Literally it just showed up a few days ago. I power through it though, still spend time with my daughter, all that.
@Cantal this is great. the best thing you can do is carry on with your life as usual, even if it's still in the background nagging at you
Mine popped up out of nowhere a couple years ago while I was working at a daycare. What's frustrating is that I also have no history of it (this was my 2nd year working with no problems before) and have always dated my own age but for some reason I started reviewing memories and finding "evidence" that I was one. Definitely one of the most terrifying themes I've had, but unfortunately a common one.
@littlecreek24 How have you been with it recently?
@Cantal Still there. For a while I was afraid to rewatch shows I love because they have child characters, but I decided that I have to keep watching them anyway if I want to get over it. Not sure if it worked, because my main theme ended up changing to morality(?) so the p thing has kind of taken a back seat. It's still around, although I'm not quite as obsessed as before.
I'm posting something after a long. I have multiple Ocd themes and my main themes of sexual ocd is incest Ocd and Hocd and POCD has never been so active but today something happened that has been bothering me for a while. I was traveling in a bus and there I saw a kid/young teen. When I saw him, I instantly found him so attractive and then BOOM.. I started feeling like I'm attracted to him. I felt confused. I literally found him attractive and also thought that he would look really fine after growing up his face was so attractive but I don't want to be into him at all. I feel like I'm so much into him. I'm feeling very bothered by this feeling. I feel like I'm in denial and I should accept my attraction towards him. I don't want to feel this way at all. I don't understand what to do, how to figure out this feeling. I'm 99% sure that there was an underlying attraction I felt when I looked at him and realized that he is good looking. I feel like dying from inside and extremely confused. He's not in my bus now and I feel urges to just see him once to finally figure out that I'm into him or not but he is not here. I think I'm a pedophile which I don't want to be and everything is finished now, nothing would be same in my mind because I'm so paranoid and feeling like I'm into him. Please somebody help me and let me know if anyone of you has ever felt this way having POCD.
Anyone with pocd in the subset of teens/ fear of being attracted to teens have any advice? I never see anyone talking about it and it’s making me go a lil cray lmao
So I just read a Reddit post about how this guy found out that he was a pedo because of how he started feeling that he was still attracted to middle schoolers as a 14 year old in high school and it never changed even when he got into adulthood. I’m currently under the age of 16 and I’m worried of my attraction feelings I felt towards some kids I’ve seen on social media and real life, I’m not sure if they are false or not. I have gotten a diagnosis, I remember lying on 2 questions, saying I didn’t feel aroused and that i don’t enjoy the thoughts n feelings. I’m not sure if i enjoy the thoughts and feelings, and now im worried i about it, i dont feel worry dread panic or shame and disgust when I get those thoughts and feelings anymore. I also remember that when i was 14 I felt attracted to a 12 or 11 year old, i kept going back to look at her idk why, but i think that i was worried because I didn’t want to be attracted to younger aged ppl. Im worried that all of these feelings of attraction aren’t false and that they are a reflection of who i am. I do not wish to be a pedo, nor do I wish to like kids. I know that I won’t hurt kids, but I’m scared that I am a pedo because of the feelings I get. I don’t understand myself anymore, I hope it’s pocd not actual pedophilia, I don’t trust that diagnosis I got because of those 2 questions I lied on, I said that i don’t like those thoughts n feelings even though I don’t know if I really do or not, can someone please help me? Idk what I have anymore, I don’t want it to be pedophilia
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