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POCD
This popped up randomly. I know logically I’m not one as I’ve only ever dated my age range and I don’t believe there’s a such thing as “latent philia” but goodness is this one weird
This popped up randomly. I know logically I’m not one as I’ve only ever dated my age range and I don’t believe there’s a such thing as “latent philia” but goodness is this one weird
Hello, OCD will use anything to make people feel uncertain to encourage them to engage in compulsions. This is especially true with attraction, because it is hard to find tangible evidence for attraction outside of feelings or bodily sensations. Also, feelings are already difficult to define and rarely provide a clear cause for their presence. Here's a video that talks in more depth about POCD. I hope it is helpful. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bg-VdyA9MoQ
yeah, like with any other theme, it will try it's hardest to convince you of it even when it makes literally no sense and there's no reason to think it. it's tough. sorry you're dealing with it too :(
@moon027097 Literally it just showed up a few days ago. I power through it though, still spend time with my daughter, all that.
@Cantal this is great. the best thing you can do is carry on with your life as usual, even if it's still in the background nagging at you
Mine popped up out of nowhere a couple years ago while I was working at a daycare. What's frustrating is that I also have no history of it (this was my 2nd year working with no problems before) and have always dated my own age but for some reason I started reviewing memories and finding "evidence" that I was one. Definitely one of the most terrifying themes I've had, but unfortunately a common one.
@littlecreek24 How have you been with it recently?
@Cantal Still there. For a while I was afraid to rewatch shows I love because they have child characters, but I decided that I have to keep watching them anyway if I want to get over it. Not sure if it worked, because my main theme ended up changing to morality(?) so the p thing has kind of taken a back seat. It's still around, although I'm not quite as obsessed as before.
I’m scared I might become a r*pist I’m over here thinking at a time I saw a kid and I looked down at his pants like I keep thinking about what I did and it’s like I feel attracted and to me it felt like I gave him this predator look and he probably thinks I’m a P I just wonder how is this Pocd Because it feels like I want to do stuff like I don’t know I keep thinking about that situation
I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
im not sure what this could be described as exactly since this is the first time i can explicitly remember something like this happening and it lasted for a few hours (thankfully i had no internet on the flight so i couldn’t seek reassurance) but yesterday, as i was on an airplane back to the us, i was watching desperate housewives and was watching an episode where one of the moms (lynette scavo) went into a swimming coach’s (art shepard) house and there was a scene where she and her kids were in the house and she found her kids in the basement filled with a bunch of kids games. however, the wall to the side was also filled with pictures of young shirtless boys which indicated that he could be a pedophile. i feel like i looked at the screen a bit more intently during that specific scene to see what exactly it was that was causing the suspense of the moment. however, my mind started telling me that i looked at the screen because i was attracted to the kids and that i am supposedly a pedophile. i had a thought spiral about this for maybe an hour or two during the flight where my mind was trying to accuse me and i tried mentally rationalizing as to why im not a pedophile and reassured myself that this is probably just ocd but it seemed very real at the time period and it freaked me out
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