Brooklyn33
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- 5y
confused writerconfused writer
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- 5y
Just had to say that i have this thought too. That if i'd know i'd choose what to do. But u dont. So i cant.
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
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- 5y
I also wish I knew. Ive talked to people that I know are gay or bi and gave into my compulsions and ive taken those dumbass quizes on the internet and saw a thread on twitter that was like “if you look up ‘am I gay?’ ... then sis you gay” and never took into consideration for 6 years that maybe I have ocd and peoplr have told me that since I dress like a tomboy that I look like im gay. The fuck do they know. Nobody knew that I already had the thoughts “maybe..” “what if..” and sent me into a spiral
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
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- 5y
The thought was invalid*
Brooklyn33Brooklyn33
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- 5y
Yaaaaas. I really feel you so much ♡ Is like we don't fit with anyone. We can't be this. We can't be that. We just can't feel happy being whatever... I really think girls are pretty and sexy sometimes. Is normal that people (doesn't matter the sexuality) found sexual things or sexy bodies actually... sexual xd it is normal. I know in the present I don't want to go and have sex with a girl. Maybe someday I can try so I know what it is, maybe I will not do this because I don't need it. I don't know but that doesn't have to make me feel miserable ♡
Brooklyn33Brooklyn33
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- 5y
God! I did the same xdd you know I am big girl and also have issues with my body. But that doesn't mean Im less girl than anyone. And I can find other girls more attractive than before because my obsession makes me focus on that much more and that doesn't change the way I see my sexuality. That doesnt have to change even if I didn't have ocd. Others can see it the way they want and it still be valid to themselves. And yes, you own your way of living free and nobody else. And ocd is not being frew at all...
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
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- 5y
Its like im stuck in a cage that isnt locked.. I used to tell myself “I seriously would be okay with myself if I was bisexual or gay... I just want to know” but I never knew. Infact I was terrified of the thought and thats how I knew that the thought was valid. I also thought that maybe I was just in denial and my thoughts were signs. I also kind of have tunnel vision now when I look at girls and force myself to look at girls in a certain way and have the intrusive thoughts, freak myself out, and try to dent the thought
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