I’m tired of thinking about the same OCD thought to “kill mom” it just doesn’t leave. I try to break the cycle but when it’s broken it just sits there and waits to be interacted with. Idk what to do im tired of it. And it makes me feel like a psycho path and I’m tired of not feeling like myself.
Are you diagnosed with ocd?
@dacholacommander No, more of a self diagnosis
@Ericseal18 I’d recommend getting an official diagnosis first. If you have ocd, you’re not a psychopath. Trust me.
@dacholacommander I clearly get anxious and whatnot but like I can’t stand being so focused on one thought 😣
@Ericseal18 Again get a diagnosis. But my advice would be for you to try your best to not engage with the thought. Recognize that its a fight you will lose everytime. Dont engage.
Reminder ocd is intrusive thoughts out of your control and ego dystonic meaning it goes against your beliefs.
@AJ Rose Yeah, I keep questioning if it’s OCD but I think it’s apart of the scare tactic it brings
@Ericseal18 Do you question it because it feels you wanna act on it or because you’re having the thought so it must be true?
@AJ Rose Both tbh
@AJ Rose My anxiety is low rn and it’s making me question everything because I’m not freaking out.
@Ericseal18 Sometimes my anxiety calms down because either the thought is about to go away or because I realized like I don’t wanna act on them. Is that the same for you or you’re not sure? And I’m diagnosed OCD for 2 years now I’m here with any questions..
@AJ Rose Yeah I’m ngl I have no idea I think maybe I’m realizing but at the same time probably overthinking
@AJ Rose I think it’s just lowered but not fully gone.. this is a relapse of the same thought so maybe it’s in the process of going away not sure..
@AJ Rose Now that I think about it I feel like since I’m thinking it must be true..
@Ericseal18 Our biggest struggle with ocd, we think because we have em they’re ours but ocd is intrusive UNCONTROLLABLE thoughts. My therapist use to say all the time “you are not your thoughts” OCD is ego dystonic meaning that it goes against your beliefs and who you are as a person. Also my therapist told me if it’s thoughts I wanted to have I would enjoy them and it wouldn’t cause me distressing having the thoughts.
@AJ Rose Yeah, that’s the thing. Now that I’m not stressing it gives me a false perspective that I like the thought? Maybe it’s my brain trying to agree and move on idk I’m definitely not acting on anything lool
@Ericseal18 Yeah I get that too and sometimes arousal and my psychiatrist said it’s your mind playing tricks on you.. it’s a false fantasy
@AJ Rose Yeah it’s a crazy feeling, and btw you asked about social medias but I responded and it got deleted
@Ericseal18 Which one do you have? I’ll put mine quick and put spaces
@AJ Rose All of them
@Ericseal18 No spaces of course lol
@AJ Rose It’s good brother just keep me updated bro!
@Ericseal18 Oh did it delete it?
Hey guys, for you, Aj Rose, buy a book Break free from Ocd, almost 300 pages, and i see my self in every single page of that book, having ocd since i was 13 now i turned 25 last week, So helped me God, you will not be sorry for that book Eric i have a test for you brother, when the thought comes you will do this you say to your mind this , what if i did that and she s gone, but trully imagine yourself you are sitting in jail now because you did that And SHE IS GONE and sit on that for 20 seconds please, tell me did you THOUGHT in any moment after REALIZATION what you actually did, took a sudden shift, maybe like, am i really this stupid i knew that i would never hurt her,or anything similar?
I feel that but with my own body because I can’t find my middle ground sometimes , I wanna pick success and I wanna pick failure and it’s what decays my mind because of how I’m rushing it
Pick failure on one side, pick success on other and then use, Anger as a weapon not Rage or Wrath, just anger, because anger gives power to your middle ground(your logic brain)
what is the obsessive thought to “kill mom” around still. It was here for a month then went away for a few months. Now it’s back and feels like it’s not going away.
Hi again :c I’ve been having terrible thoughts of hurting my loved ones I’ve stopped watching horror movies which is my favorite genre and can’t even watch or read anything related to violence even if it’s just a video or movie talking about it, I get triggered so fast I really miss feeling that relief with my mom I miss my mom so much and I just don’t know what to do anymore I almost committed last weekend from how scared I was and Ik your thinking will you try again? idk I’m not sure, one day I might say “no” next I’ll plan it out, but truth be told I don’t want to die I want to live a normal life, I want to stay with my mom and my family, I love my family and my grandma and my older brother..I’m so sick of feeling this feeling, I’m tired of arguing with my brain, I want to be with my mom and spend time with her like I used to, but I can’t stand that thought of hurting them it makes me shake and I feel this pain in my chest, my OCD has been trying to convince me all those crime docs and stuff I’m into turned me this way but that’s impossible since I’ve never thought like this before I’m just tired that’s all Idek know what I’m looking for saying this..prolly just to vent or to know if this will ever go away..
So I had a panic attack a while ago to “kill mom” and I forgot about the thought until a few days later. When it came back I was mentally drained and it lasted for 2 months or more. It eventually went away but it is back. I get other intrusive thoughts but they go away after a hour or so. Why am I stressing over “kill mom” so much. I just get irritated that it won’t go away. I’m beginning to think it’s a different mental illness maybe just anxiety? I’m not sure to be honest. It just appears and sits there and I feel like I’m doomed and a pyscho and worry that I’ll never forget the thought.
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