OCD and scary obsessions

@Anonymous I had the sudden onset of ocd happen to me this February 15th and it’s been the scariest thing to ever happen to me in my life because it’s harm ocd and never in my life have I had such violent awful intrusive thoughts until that day 😞😭 I was so terrified when those horrible intrusive thoughts started happening on that day and I thought something was seriously wrong and I was so confused where those thoughts were coming from because I’ve never had any thoughts like that in my entire life so it was really terrifying. I knew I would never think such awful things like that because I’m a really kind empathetic person. It’s been almost two months with dealing with this, and I feel like just giving up every day because of how awful and scary this is to deal with. I’ve always prided myself on being a compassionate and caring person, and I feel that I’m someone who has such a big heart and is very empathetic, so for this to be happening to me makes me feel so awful and like I’m some horrible person or something even when I know that’s not true 😔

@Aldxma.steph I feel the exact same way but with POCD, this is so opposite of me.

@aToM I’m so sorry you’re going through this theme 😞 I just try to remind myself everyday that these thoughts aren’t mine and that I don’t cause them and that OCD creates the content and not me. We know who we are as people before this started happening to us, and we need to remind ourselves of our values, beliefs, who we know that we are and not take the content of our intrusive thoughts seriously because they’re the opposite of who we are.

@Aldxma.steph I agree, what helps me is telling myself I was never like this before and that it's against who I am and who I want to be

@Aldxma.steph That is how mine started 7 years ago! I never noticed it and one night it just started out of nowhere, I was physically sick , shaking, heart racing. And I was going through hair school. I felt like I couldn’t tell anyone so my mom ( iwas 22 at the time) kept trying to take me to doctors over me throwing up so much but it took me finally just opening up & finding a therapist luckily I was so tired I just let it all out and she let me know my brain is just trying to protect itself from anything bad like that ever happening, it’s a safety response, and because it’s so far from our character that’s why it’s so bothersome otherwise we wouldn’t care. Bad people don’t question the way we do. We are just so caring our brain wants to go the extra mile

@C2424 I understand that this isn’t my fault and that OCD causes all these horrible intrusive thoughts and that it isn’t me, but it’s so hard for me to not feel like an awful person everyday 😭 I just carry so much guilt and shame everyday and so much sadness as well and that it all just feels so hopeless sometimes :(( But I’m doing my best to remind myself that this happening to me isn’t my fault and that I have to do my best everyday to not let this affect me so much because I know that I’m not the one causing these horrible thought, and to think of this ocd as something separate from me. I’m doing my best everyday to not beat myself up so much about it and to do non engagement responses and do my best to not over react bc I know that will just make it worse and worse.

@Aldxma.steph You’re doing the best that you can and that’s what matters🩷

@Aldxma.steph Its not real. Its not a reflection of what you THINK, it's often a reflection of what you FEEL not carefully articulated to yourself in thought. We tend to lean towards what we worry about most and think about that intuitively. Unfortunately intuition is a feeling based upon our perception of reality, our experiences. So if you worry about hurting someone, you're actually worried about being a hurtful person because avoiding that is the thing you care about the most. If consciously present we tend to resist these thoughts/images SO hard we feel the need to problem solve them OUTWARDLY, as well as inwardly(as we are social creatures that thrive on knowing we belong, we begin to develop habits to outwardly avoid being seen and hyper correct our "wrong"(intrusive) thoughts with behaviors that ultimately bring the thought back up, in leiu of our conscience which ends up kicking in cognitively second, which makes us feel we've had little conscience about it bc were focused on how it made us FEEL intuitively while trying to force the focus into "how do we fix this, what is the explanation" and the explanation is often times as simple as "I want to avoid this" but the WHY and HOW are weakly defined. Ergo. OCD. @Staff Do I have this right?

@Anonymous Yes, we will!

@Infinite Yes, this topic is awful

@Infinite NOCD has an amazing support group on taboo themes for their members!

@Anonymous They are still ego-dystonic. You still don’t like them, regardless of your energy level - which by the way is completely understandable because life is already tiring enough, but with OCD it’s particularly draining, like living life on hard mode.

@Anonymous I’m a Christian and I occasionally have scary thoughts that are frightening. I say “I rebuke that thought in the name of Jesus Christ! I don’t feel that way towards you God, I hate that thought, IT HAS NO ROOM IN MY LIFE! and I rebuke it in Jesus name, amen! That helps me because the Bible says that God knows our heart. I tell him thankfully God, you know my heart. When I tell God “This thought has no room in my life!” I discovered saying this is very powerful and it’s comforting to me because I’m telling God it’s not me that feels this way. It has helped reduce those thoughts dramatically. I hope this will help you too. There’s power in the name of Jesus (demons tremble at the name of Jesus and there’s power in the blood of Jesus, (washes away our sins). “For God so loved the world (that’s you) that he gave us only begotten son, that whosoever believe in him, shall not perish, but have everlasting life.”John 3:16.

@qualia Thank you <3

@Debra Elam Amen 🙏 I have scary frightening thoughts too and I say exactly what you do I rebuke it in the name of Jesus and it helps!! ❤️‍🩹Thanks for sharing 💗

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@qualia I am curious. Trigger warning! When mental exhaustion tends to invalidate you, in other words I have the images more when I'm burnt out mentally or smoking weed(could be the psychosis, I am also schizo affective) an indicator that it's NOT ego dystonic? In other words does frequency mean anything? Or can we simply fall flat on our words or belief in ourselves to such an extent the brain becomes "lazy?"

Those with ocd are no more likely to act on thoughts.