i’m terrified to get a diagnosis. What if it’s not actually OCD??? I made a list of reasons why i think so and then i think what if im lying and i actually don’t do this stuff and am just dramatic and i just want to have OCD so then my thoughts are justified?? I have struggled in the past year with Pocd & Rocd and then also some bits of thinking im constantly in danger or being watched? I’m scared.
Breathe sit with it and know your feelings are valid. OCD is terrifying. OCD loves playing with your head. You wouldn’t feel so bad if those thoughts were from you. OCD plays really bad with you. You’re gonna be okay. I cannot diagnose you but I could tell you ocd is a bitch and will make you think the worst things you would never even thought of before.
@yaya_zz my fear is why in the past when i was younger i didn’t freak out as much. i also have a hard time with ive always been hyper sexual since a child and my stress relief to self soothe has always been masturbation since a child. Now, i can’t and won’t do it because im terrified a child will pop in my mind. i’d never ever want to fantasize about children willingly ever. i go back and forth what if i enjoy the thoughts or not
“I just want to have OCD so then my thoughts are justified” I relate 100000000%. And it sounds like OCD is just being an a$$hole again
@Jesusislord03$ well i just signed up for therapy and it starts monday so im terrified
@thesunwillcomeoutt Totally makes sense! You’re doing the best thing. I felt the same way
What you are describing is a pretty classic OCD fear. I have had OCD for at least a decade, probably longer, and I’ve been diagnosed for about 6 months. I very regularly have intrusive thoughts about having “made up” or lied about my OCD symptoms. Here’s what I say to myself to help me cope with the uncertainty without using compulsions: “I think I have OCD, but I could be wrong. It’s possible. That’s fine. I know that ERP therapy is helping me build skills that are making my life better, so having certainty about my diagnosis is not necessary.” Then when the thought comes up again (it will), I don’t repeat that script back to myself because that will just become compulsive. Instead I think, “No, I’m done with that.” Please give ERP a try! It’s so hard but so good.
@Anonymous i’m terrified and starting therapy monday and i guess she’ll diagnose me after a few sessions.
@thesunwillcomeoutt Congratulations on starting therapy! Diagnosis or not, you are taking a really brave step in the right direction. It won’t be easy, but allowing yourself to tolerate the discomfort will be so worth it in the long run. I wouldn’t call myself “recovered” yet, but even after 6 months of therapy I see huge changes in myself. ERP is the one of the healthiest things I have ever done for myself. Don’t bail on yourself!
@Anonymous I’m glad ERP is working for you. I’m just terrified in a few weeks my biggest fear will come true and i won’t have OCD and that i’m just actually a P
It is common for OCD to create intense doubt, making you question your own reality and fear that you might be 'lying' or exaggerating your experiences. Facing these kinds of intrusive thoughts and the fear surrounding them, including worries about POCD and ROCD, is incredibly difficult. Help is here at NOCD and we can assist you in finding outside help if needed too. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/6-common-fears-that-keep-people-with-ocd-from-seeking-help/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/overcoming-anxious-attachment/ https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/why-am-i-scared-to-be-happy-in-a-relationship
This is me to a T… and I’ve been on medication and diagnosed several times. What the person above said was perfect. “You wouldn’t feel so bad if those thoughts were from you”. It’s so confusing and hard some days. I’m so sorry. I feel this to my core.
@Anonymous what if i don’t like the thoughts bc i don’t want to be a P and not bc i don’t like them and what if i secretly do that’s what my brain says
@thesunwillcomeoutt I’m not going to reassure you. But remember: you trying to figure this out is a compulsion. If you were really a pedo you would have hid these fears and acted on it. OCD attacks your morals, ect.
@thesunwillcomeoutt - You are safe and there's nothing you have to do about it right now. Unfortunately, the only way around it is through it, and getting diagnosed/working with a therapist will help you. I wish you the best of luck!
Same, I don’t want to be diagnosed as a p
@Idontknow i’m terrified
@thesunwillcomeoutt I understand 100% 😞
@Idontknow then i ask myself as i disgusted with the thoughts or with the thoughts of being one and the answer is both. I don’t enjoy the thoughts i don’t want them but i also don’t want to be a P
@thesunwillcomeoutt I understand, sometimes I’m not even sure if I desire it or it’s just my brain tricking me
@Idontknow right and the worst part is that before like years ago it all started i think after i was SA id get intrusive thoughts but not think too much and just go about my day but now it’s all i can think about
@thesunwillcomeoutt I’m sorry that happened to you, and I can relate like it started little by little and now its an obsessive thing
@Idontknow yep i pray im a good person i hope u get better soon
@thesunwillcomeoutt 😣
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
so i was on instagram and it came up with other signs of ocd then someone commented this doesn’t mean you have ocd now im stressed that its not ocd background - i had so-ocd for a few years then got treatment for it but am now on the waiting list for further treatment for other stuff but i dont have another theme which makes me feel like its not ocd my day to day life consists of touching the door handle every time you go past it or someone will die, and inability to send emails without re reading loads of times and getting other people to check because im scared i wrote something bad but the what if it’s not ocd thought is triggering me now and i don’t know what do
i’m so scared im going to lose control and end up locked up or something. this is so exhausting!! i worry that what i have isn’t OCD and that im genuinely insane and im gonna end up in big trouble or that the urges i have are going to actually happen. i dont want to think these things ! i feel like a horrible human being!!
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