Ocd

Your heart speaks in a way that your mouth cannot. These thoughts shape how you feel and breathe, but remember you are not defined by your thoughts; you are the one listening to them. This means you still have a choice and are not powerless. Respond to your racing heart with kindness, you are allowed to control the storm within you. Even if it’s just for a brief moment, remember that racing thoughts often indicate your body is in survival mode, preparing you for the worst, worst scenarios that usually never happen. Negative thoughts are not the truth they are simply fear. Your body is filled with these thoughts that just need space to breathe.

Experiencing thoughts that make you feel horrible and intensely personal can be very frightening and lead to significant guilt and physical symptoms like a racing heart. I totally understand how uncomfortable you might be feeling Remember, the fact that these thoughts that cause you distress is often a sign they clash with your true values. Help is here at NOCD and we can assist you in finding outside help if needed too. First let just normalize how common this experience is. We all have intrusive thoughts but it's important to separate them from ourselves and remember that our thoughts are just that, Thoughts! When we search for meaning and purpose behind these thoughts that's what drives our distress. Second, We have to have empathy and self compassion towards ourselves. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/my-ocd-journey/from-the-darkness-to-the-light Hope this helps

I'd get that examined by a professional like an urgent care maybe all insight I can give you are those 2 original ideas

Same like what person with Pocd has this, I feel alone and just avoid everything by sleeping