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Ocd
I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time
I had a horrible thought and it was my own thought. I feel awful. Also my heart is racing all the time
Your heart speaks in a way that your mouth cannot. These thoughts shape how you feel and breathe, but remember you are not defined by your thoughts; you are the one listening to them. This means you still have a choice and are not powerless. Respond to your racing heart with kindness, you are allowed to control the storm within you. Even if it’s just for a brief moment, remember that racing thoughts often indicate your body is in survival mode, preparing you for the worst, worst scenarios that usually never happen. Negative thoughts are not the truth they are simply fear. Your body is filled with these thoughts that just need space to breathe.
My heart has just been racing non stop and I dont know why :( I get out if breath really easily doing nothing and my heart beats really fast all the time. It's scary
@Anonymous Could be anxiety or possibly underlying respiratory issues do you believe the racing heart is related to your mental health?
@mui I'm not anxious atm and I don't have respiratory issues :( my heart is just always beating fast and I get out of breath really easily even just talking . I also get super dizzy
@Anonymous My wish is for you to inform this app and me of what you discover
Experiencing thoughts that make you feel horrible and intensely personal can be very frightening and lead to significant guilt and physical symptoms like a racing heart. I totally understand how uncomfortable you might be feeling Remember, the fact that these thoughts that cause you distress is often a sign they clash with your true values. Help is here at NOCD and we can assist you in finding outside help if needed too. First let just normalize how common this experience is. We all have intrusive thoughts but it's important to separate them from ourselves and remember that our thoughts are just that, Thoughts! When we search for meaning and purpose behind these thoughts that's what drives our distress. Second, We have to have empathy and self compassion towards ourselves. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/my-ocd-journey/from-the-darkness-to-the-light Hope this helps
I'd get that examined by a professional like an urgent care maybe all insight I can give you are those 2 original ideas
Same like what person with Pocd has this, I feel alone and just avoid everything by sleeping
I’m really struggling with something related to me ocd, and I would appreciate kind and supportive advice. If you can’t relate or don’t think anything you have to say would be helpful, I kindly ask pls refrain from commenting this is a really sensitive topic for me. Recently, I’ve noticed a pattern that feels something extremely new and distressing. The first time it happened I remember telling myself before self pleasuring that I am in control no matter what thought comes into my mind because I wanted to prove to myself that these thoughts are just from OCD and I know who I am and an intrusive that came out of no where, and i suddenly felt an intense fear that I was acting on it. In the moment I genuinely felt like I did. And afterword, I panicked and started questioning myself. This SAME FEELING has happened three times in a row each time, the intrusive thought was unwanted and random, and completely against my morals most recently it involved pocd and it feels even worse because it generally felt like I acted on it the thought in the moment while I was self pleasuring the panic doesn’t hit until afterwards when I stop :/ I start thinking that maybe I generally made a mistake and I’m now just realizing that it’s wrong because it generally feels like that :( but when I actually think about it again goes against my morals and values doesn’t make sense it feels incredibly real, and I can’t seem to shake this feeling off that I may have acted on it I’m terrified because I never wanted these thoughts in the first place. And I definitely didn’t choose them. If I had known, I would’ve had these intrusive thoughts I wouldn’t have self pleasured in the first place but it’s extremely hard to convince myself that this may be OCD because I feel like I have no other reason to believe that I didn’t act on it :/
I’m sharing this bc I need advice or even support from anyone who can relate. If you can’t relate and don’t think you’ll say anything helpful or kind pls don’t comment anything… I’ve been struggling with somethings that’s making me question myself. There has been moments while self pleasuring when I get intrusive thoughts, in those moments it feels like I’m enjoying or even self pleasuring myself bc of the thought. Right after I immediately have an anxiety attack and my HEART drops bc it feels terrible I feel like a disgusting monster :( ppl have told me I haven’t done a bad bc of how intense my guilt and panic are but I keep thinking that MAYBE I made a horrible decision in the moment and the guilt is just realising that it’s just wrong this doesn’t make sense to me because I’ve always told myself that I would never act on this in 1 million years and I’ve been known that these things are wrong so I’m just like constantly questioning myself these feelings and exact same situation has happened two times already I even promised myself that I wouldn’t act on anything beforehand and yeah, I still felt like I did act on my thought during my alone time I’m genuinely convinced that I’m a horrible and it’s even got into the point where I don’t wanna be here anymore and I don’t even think this is my OCD :( tbh
I want to go do something I enjoy so badly but I feel like I don’t deserve it. I’m full of guilt, shame, and anxiety. I wish I felt okay like I did a few days ago. I feel so awful right now. I hate OCD. I HATE pocd. I hate all of it. I wish this was easier. Sometimes I have the thought that I wish I was the things my OCD makes me afraid I am out of desperation to stop the anxiety, but then that thought makes me panic bc I don’t actually mean that or want that I just want the anxiety and urgency in the compulsions to stop. I’m so tired
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