Alot is on my mind u feel like I’m going to lose my mind , not really a lot but if I think too hard I think I’m gonna lose my mind , I was trying to slp n I think I’m gonna lose my mind , I’ve always been having thoughts about going crazy it never really changed , I have other thoughts and triggers but they always somehow lead Bk to me thinking I’m going to lose my mind , guys I’m so tired , do I even have ocd
You likely do have OCD. Thinking you might not have the disorder is super common. It’s known as the “doubt disorder” after all. It can attach to any doubt that you have. This includes doubts about your sanity. There have been many times that my OCD (mixed with a little mania) made me feel “crazy” the funny part being that I was actually crazy. I was diagnosed with two mental disorders, so technically I am. This reassures me in a weird way. The reason I was feeling weird in my head is bc of my mental illness, which now I have a name for and can find ways to treat. I can almost assure u that u do have OCD because mine has presented similarly.
This is definitely an OCD symptom. I promise you though you will not go crazy. Its very easy to feel like youll lose your mind because your thoughts are running so fast or because of an obsession about it, but you won’t go crazy. If it is any consolation, OCD and psychosis are opposite from each other in the sense that OCD is thoughts getting stuck or having high inertia whereas psychosis is thoughts flowing too freely and almost running out of control. If you have these worries you are definitely not insane. One of my best friends developed schizophrenia/bipolar psychosis when we were in high school and he was not worrying at all about whether or not he was going crazy. The fact that you are thinking about it shows that you’re not crazy.
I have this too! One of my biggest fears. I can’t listen or watch anything that relates to it. you aren’t alone, try to think positive.
I get this thought too you’re not alone! Stay strong, eat good food and do all the right things so that your body has energy to conquer ocd. I hope you meet the right therapist some can really change your life. One advice is don’t sit and wait thinking it’ll go away on its own. It might but you’ll need right tools to fight it bc it’s bound to come back if not addressed
Alot is technically two separate words not one. The start of your paragraph should be, "A lot". Sorry, I don't mean to step over your concerns or expressions, but I get compelled to correct certain thing. Especially, grammatical errors or words missing letters. Most people make these mistake. Some are unintentional and others are quite intentions and drives me nuts!! Lol.
I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.
My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.
I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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