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Hello, I’m not sure what your idea of prayer is but it sounds more like you are making wishes to a Genie. Try to focus more on building a personal relationship with The One you are praying to and allow your thoughts to become aligned with theirs - not the other way around. A great way to start is by just respectfully saying thank you for one thing every day. For example: “thank you for keeping me safe as I run today“ This helps build faith!

Please keep in mind I’m no therapist. I’m just like you… someone who struggles with ocd seeking professional help. I think your relationship with God (prayer)is separate from ocd (recurring negative thoughts). When the thoughts come into your mind ask yourself “does this ‘meteor’ exist outside of my mind?” If not dismiss it…. In the beginning you can dismiss a lot of thoughts but the idea is to be aware