- Date posted
- 23w
Compulsions
Less than a year ago, I had a very big anxiety flare up to the point that I felt as though I needed to report to the police / harm myself. I ended up leaving an anonymous tip at the police hotline about something that I know I didnāt even do but everything told me I had to or else I will go to jail. And similarly after that I called the help line and explained I had unwanted intrusive thoughts and I didnāt think I deserved to live for having those thoughts. After these many months and working with my therapist, Iāve been able to feel a lot less anxious around this topic and now Iām getting lots of anxiety about what I did that time when I was so anxious. I gave in to my compulsions and confessed for stuff that I know sounds bad saying out loud but only certain people will understand I would never do. So now Iām just looking for someone to relate and perhaps let me know that I donāt have anything to worry about? I know itās bad to seek reassurance but Iām not sure where to go. And Iām worried Iām going to keep incriminating myself.