- Date posted
- 17w
How do you manage OCD in school with avoidance?
I had avoided a lot with school specifically, but I did do it in other areas of life as well. School for some reason has been the biggest trigger that sends me into avoidance and it has been for the longest time. Does anybody relate? If so, what did you do to help besides therapy? In high school I used to sit in the bathroom stalls for hours so I could avoid going to classes. I was struggling to keep up because my OCD makes me perfect my school work so much so to the point where Iād never turn it in because Iād never be satisfied with what Iād produce. Iād get so incredibly frustrated with myself and the fact that I could never meet my own standards, never mind the rubrics given. I took ages analyzing all my writing, all my answers, all my google slides and I burnt myself out. So I stopped trying. I stopped turning in work because Iād never be satisfied. Iād cry because I felt I wasnāt good enough. Then Iād be missing assignments, getting them done but not submitting them because I was too ashamed. So, I avoided classes because Iād be in trouble or be called out for not getting anything done. Unfortunately this habit bled into my first year of college last year, and OCD coupled up with depression, made going to the dining hall and attending classes even worse. So I avoided it all together. Itās so hard being a freshman in college, so so hard. I unfortunately failed out of that school but I tried to medically withdraw either semester. No, I wasnāt partying, or drinking or smoking or hanging with the wrong people. I was a college freshman struggling with ocd and depression. Iām trying to not make excuses for myself either because Iām well aware this is my fault and Iām trying to reverse it now at community college. Right now Iām trying to get those Fs turned into Ws from my old school so I can fix my gpa. I want to transfer, I want to be a forensic psychologist, I want to be independent, I want to be ok. Itās gonna take me so long to transfer from community college but thatās on me. Iām willing to put in the work. Iām so embarassed, please help me.