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Pocd
Im having weird scary pocd thoughts and i really hate them, i feel like theyre my own thoughts and im freaking out
Im having weird scary pocd thoughts and i really hate them, i feel like theyre my own thoughts and im freaking out
I hear you—it’s terrifying when POCD thoughts feel like they’re yours, but please know this: they are not a reflection of who you are. That fear, that disgust, that panic you feel? It’s proof that these thoughts go against everything you believe and value. OCD loves to target what matters most to you—it’s cruel like that. You’re not alone. You are not your thoughts. You are the one suffering because of them, and that means your heart is in the right place. Be gentle with yourself. This will pass. You’re still you, and you are good.
Hey Shaima have you suffered with this and if so have you struggled with these thoughts during intimacy?
@Rayanswaid I hear you—and I get that not everyone connects the same way. Just shared what helped me personally. We’re all here trying to support in the way we know best.
No i dont , but OCD is OCD, no matter the type. Whether it’s POCD or something else, it’s all the same cycle. I honestly believe that sexual OCD, whether pedophilia-related or not, often comes from excessive exposure to sexual scenes or a past history of sexual insult. Avoiding all triggers for months can really help—like your brain slowly cleans itself out. You start to feel lighter, clearer, and more in control.
Is there anyway I can inbox you? I generally have them come in during intimate moments of my two boys then I had a thought if they were of my step daughter I wouldn't be able to do this then I thought of her continued slights and ran to the bathroom to vomit now I feel so guilty
I deal pretty heavily with this. The last couple days, I’ve had what I think are urges. Something pops into my head intrusively and then what stems from that is me WANTING to just indulge in it even though it’s gross. I get worried bc I used to struggle w thoughts about my dad for a long time until eventually I just purposely thought of him while self pleasuring and got off to it. While that’s something I did, it is NOT me. It all stemmed from my mental health declining a couple years back, I was never this way before. So I get worried that it almost happened or might happen with my pocd cuz I could never live with myself if it did.
I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
I am 15 years old and my POCD feels like its not POCD, i feel like i like my intrusive thoughts, but i have more intrusive thoughts about having intrusive thoughts, and i feel like i cant enjoy the things i normally enjoy anymore, like calling with my girlfriend and joking with her because this is still in the back of my mind, its making me question morals and if i ever even viewed P as completely wrong and i hate this so much, i love my nieces and nephews and when they're over i know id never do anything with my intrusive thoughts but when they arent present i feel like i like my thoughts. Before this i was dealing with HOCD and ROCD and i wish i could go back to that
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