Anyone experience intrusive thoughts of their children during intimate moments? Have you done erp to this? I had one and continued slightly before running and needing to vomit now feel guilty anyone else experienced this?
So I regularly have thoughts that come in of my two boys then I thought if this was of my step daughter I wouldn't be able to continue then continued slightly before needing to run to the bathroom to vomit and I'm unsure if I was in the thought of her when I continued or not Feel like I should not of continued now I need therapy for this i hold alot of guilt and anxiety
it happened to me that he inserted a person (incest ocd) and replaced reality with that scene. Many times I get scared because it seems to turn me on. Many times I cried and stopped, but I have to continue. just try to focus and go back to the moment without questioning..
You've done erp for this
So this was your erp?
@Jessie- I don't understand the question? :)
@Anonimus ME🫥 What was your erp?
@Jessie- so nothing, to continue and to focus on the moment of intimacy, to simply "let go" and continue... it will be very difficult, but over time the brain somehow gets used to not attaching any importance... and now it's not linear, sometimes it's easier, sometimes it's harder, but there's no other way..
@Anonimus ME🫥 And you were taught this in erp?
@Jessie- yes..even more outrageous, just keep doing it, but it's more difficult for me, so I slowly focus on things and get my thoughts out. for example, bedding, sound, partner, and so on..I practice returning focus..
How do you ocd sufferers deal with thoughts during sex Have you done erp for this? Do you stop or continue?
I had to give my daughter a bath and wanted to help my wife bear the responsibility also read online pocd to not avoid bathing. I told myself I am going to bathe my child because im a good dad. As i bathed her i went to wipe her arms and torso. I was going to get her armpit and arm but with the sponge I wiped her chest erogenous area. Then i got anxious and did a compulsion and said “im sorry”. Then ocd said whyd i wipe there ni shouldve wiped her arm or armpit. Was i doing anything inappropriate. Or ocd said not to wipe there and I did so did i do anything inappropriate or with inappropriate intent. I hate having pocd and living parallel with this voice in my head. I know my intention wasnt inappropriate i even prep talked before and did the compulsion of apologizing after wiping. Now im questioning whyd i wipe there first before her arms and armpit since ocd told me to avoid her chest. Then i worry did i have ocd intrusive thought saying i wanted to wipe there and if i had this thought and i wiped there than it means i acted on the thought. I know i wouldnt do anything inappropriate to my child and i know my intent wasnt wrong.
Let me start by prefacing that I developed ocd as postpartum ocd after having my first child. I had harm and pocd. I had it on and off for years and then it just eventually went away completely for many years until recently after a stressful life event. Now that it’s back it again targets my children but now my grandchildren also. It’s been horrible and makes me pull away from them. Last night my 6 year old granddaughter threw up in the car when my daughter was about to take her home so my daughter brought her back in the house and asked me to clean her up while she cleaned her car. I had some anxiety about it because of my ocd but I couldn’t say no to helping so I opened the bathroom door and my granddaughter was standing in her underwear waiting for me to clean and dress her. Everything was fine and normal but then for some reason, I have no idea why, I looked down at her chest area. I immediately got so upset and didn’t know why I looked there and now my ocd is saying it’s because i’m a monster. I tried to tell myself it’s just normal human behavior when someone is standing there naked that you look where you shouldn’t simply because it’s just there in front of you but I feel horrible. I don’t feel any inappropriate way about her or any child but my ocd is saying it was inappropriate. Has anyone else been through this?
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