Anyone experience intrusive thoughts of their children during intimate moments? Have you done erp to this? I had one and continued slightly before running and needing to vomit now feel guilty anyone else experienced this?
So I regularly have thoughts that come in of my two boys then I thought if this was of my step daughter I wouldn't be able to continue then continued slightly before needing to run to the bathroom to vomit and I'm unsure if I was in the thought of her when I continued or not Feel like I should not of continued now I need therapy for this i hold alot of guilt and anxiety
it happened to me that he inserted a person (incest ocd) and replaced reality with that scene. Many times I get scared because it seems to turn me on. Many times I cried and stopped, but I have to continue. just try to focus and go back to the moment without questioning..
You've done erp for this
So this was your erp?
@Jessie- I don't understand the question? :)
@Anonimus MEš«„ What was your erp?
@Jessie- so nothing, to continue and to focus on the moment of intimacy, to simply "let go" and continue... it will be very difficult, but over time the brain somehow gets used to not attaching any importance... and now it's not linear, sometimes it's easier, sometimes it's harder, but there's no other way..
@Anonimus MEš«„ And you were taught this in erp?
@Jessie- yes..even more outrageous, just keep doing it, but it's more difficult for me, so I slowly focus on things and get my thoughts out. for example, bedding, sound, partner, and so on..I practice returning focus..
How do you ocd sufferers deal with thoughts during sex Have you done erp for this? Do you stop or continue?
Let me start by prefacing that I developed ocd as postpartum ocd after having my first child. I had harm and pocd. I had it on and off for years and then it just eventually went away completely for many years until recently after a stressful life event. Now that itās back it again targets my children but now my grandchildren also. Itās been horrible and makes me pull away from them. Last night my 6 year old granddaughter threw up in the car when my daughter was about to take her home so my daughter brought her back in the house and asked me to clean her up while she cleaned her car. I had some anxiety about it because of my ocd but I couldnāt say no to helping so I opened the bathroom door and my granddaughter was standing in her underwear waiting for me to clean and dress her. Everything was fine and normal but then for some reason, I have no idea why, I looked down at her chest area. I immediately got so upset and didnāt know why I looked there and now my ocd is saying itās because iām a monster. I tried to tell myself itās just normal human behavior when someone is standing there naked that you look where you shouldnāt simply because itās just there in front of you but I feel horrible. I donāt feel any inappropriate way about her or any child but my ocd is saying it was inappropriate. Has anyone else been through this?
so Iāve been seeking therapy for my OCD for a few years. The theme that Iāve been dealing with most recently is the fear of becoming a pedophile, which then has led to intrusive images of me doing things to kids.Which now is just causing me so much distress and 24/7 constant thought cycle. I am starting to not be able to tell the difference between thoughts that are wanted/ unwanted- the line has become some blurry and these things are starting to feel like someothing i want to do. My brain keeps telling me to just test these thoughts and the āmaybeāorāi donāt knowā isnāt working. This has become such a barrier because the second layer is that Iām afraid that if I just let the thoughts be there itāll make me be OK with doing those things and the fear is whatās keeping me from actually doing something inappropriate. Itās also transitioned into intrusive thoughts and images of me doing something very disgusting to my dog and that when Iām cuddling with him I get the thoughts to just do it or try it to see if i am actually a p*do. itās almost like the compulsion would be to do the inappropriate thing, even though I know itās wrong just to see how it would make me feel. I feel like i canāt control these urges even though iāve never acted on it. At any point i could just do it. Iāve never had these thoughts before up until about a year and a half ago when my friendās boyfriend got arrested for soliciting a minor then all these thoughts came to life.Has anyone experienced something like this and have any advice?
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