Brian.Hope

Date posted: 17w

Harm ocd

Hey, I suffer from harm ocd and I feel as if it’s non stop everything I do everyday I believe I killed someone I believe it’s harm ocd and false memory but like today I went to the store and saw a older lady and my head thinks of images of me pushing them or killing then and right after that thought I feel as if I done it then the rest of the day I ruminate replaying everything. I know erp and I should just accept the thought and let it go but it’s not easy and I feel as if i really hurt or killed someone and I don’t want to go to jail for something I don’t want to do . Any tips would be appreciated I don’t know how to accept and move on when it feels so real that I did something!

J13

Date posted: 17w

could you try singing some of the intrusive thoughts? or slowing them down super slow or even super fast? just to mess around with them so they may start to feel more humorous potentially— just a thought🙏🏼✨

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 17w

I can try lol maybe I should try making a joke out of them ! Thanks for the tip i always take the thought so seriously so maybe throwing some humor will do me some good

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 14w

I have this. How are you doing? Do you fancy a chat?

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 14w

@Ilovedylan20@ Hey, yea that would be great

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 14w

@Anonymous I'm really struggling atm and I saw your post and related to it so much

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 14w

@Ilovedylan20@ Sorry you have to also deal with this , yea it’s so annoying to live with . It’s literally every day I have some messed up images/thoughts . And now I’m having sleepwalking harm thoughts which sucks my head makes me think I’m sleep walking killing people then going back to bed , my best advice is try just letting the thoughts / images pop up and that’s it I realized the more I think and replay the scenario the worse my anxiety/ocd gets . If ud like I can give you my personal email and if ur having a real bad day w thoughts maybe I can give some tips or vice versa , it’s nice talking to other people that deal w the same thing . One day we will beat these thoughts !

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 14w

@Anonymous Thank you so much for your reply. Did you ever have killing thoughts false memories without sleep walking? I could literally just walk down the street 😢 they feel so real. I have been so down 😢

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 14w

@Ilovedylan20@ Yes! All the time . I usually get anxiety just thinking about leaving my house because I know when I’m out all I’m going to be thinking about is these terrible thoughts like if I’m at a store and walk past someone I’ll get a upsetting thought or imagine then right after get false memories of if I just did something its annoying. I know it’s hard but try living life like u do not have these thoughts it’s true the less attention/meaning we give the thoughts the less power they have over us but it’s easier said then done I still struggle with it but we got this , keep ur head up and trying happy

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 14w

@Anonymous Try being happy *

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 14w

@Anonymous I'm so sorry you're going through this but I am so relived in a way because I have felt so alone 😔 my job is even triggering me. It's the killing theme it's just awful

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 14w

@Ilovedylan20@ I agree , it’s nice to know other people are dealing with the same thing it makes you feel less alone . I know it’s hard working and dealing with that at the same time , I was on a bad streak before I was also dealing with the harm thoughts all day at work then when I got home I would ruminate and then have the false memories and it was a bad spiral. Have you tried erp or heard of it by chance ?

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 14w

Also do you get false memories soon after having a thought/image pop In your head ?

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 14w

@Anonymous God we are identical. Every day feels like a survival race. Yes! I get my harm false memories straight after. Eg if I see someone I will straight away have the false memories " you've just done xyz "

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 12w

@Anonymous How are you ?

Brian.Hope

Date posted: 12w

@Ilovedylan20@ Hey, doing ok I still have my moments , how about you are you doing better? Need to vent about anything ?

Ilovedylan20@

Date posted: 12w

@Anonymous Just same old false memories! I think my flare up has passed thankfully. That was so scary

ObsessiveCD99

Date posted: 10w

I have this too and it’s terrifying. As awful as it sounds, it’s nice to know other people have these thoughts too which I think shows it’s just OCD playing tricks!

flowerpetals

Date posted: 21w

frustrating

harm ocd is the bane of my existence. people always tell me that if you have anxiety over a thought, that’s ocd. and these intrusive thoughts cause me IMMENSE anxiety. i’m constantly looking for reasons why i’m not what these thoughts tell me i am. but WHY DOES IT FEEL SO REAL?? it’s like i can’t reassure myself that this isn’t me and i don’t want to do it, but i also look for reasons why it’s not me. my brain is constantly telling me “if you don’t act on this, you’ll never feel free”. WHAT EVEN IS THAT?? and why does it feel real?? anytime i think about getting therapy, i constantly think that it’s not going to help me positively but help me realize i am this person. i just wish someone with harm ocd could get into my brain, understand me, and tell me everything will be okay. i wish someone in recovery could tell me that they’ve been where i am, felt the same feelings, thought the same thoughts, and got through it when they thought they wouldn’t. i feel like i’m drowning in it. another thing is i think about how my mom knows a surface level understanding to this form of my ocd, but if she knew it all, i’m scared she’d never look at me the same. i’m scared she’d be scared of me and think i need psychiatric help. IM TERRIFIED.

Harm OCD

joshuadrennen

Date posted: 20w

struggling with harm OCD

i’m back in a cycle of having harm related OCD thoughts and feelings and urges and i get these episodes where it’s like i’m disassociating and feel like i’m about to snap and go crazy violent. does anyone else experience this? i need help

Anonymous

Date posted: 8w

Harm ocd

Hello everybody I just am looking for someone to talk to about my harm ocd / false memory/ sexual intrusiveness. Anyone who has healed or found ways to deal with the illness. Feels like I’m losing hope more and more everyday. I want to be okay but it’s hard living with uncertainty and unwanted urges of doing something terrible. Thanks god bless.

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