prakriti
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prakritiprakriti
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And don't worry. I won't limit my life. I have always supported the idea of loving and accepting yourself. So sooner or later i will explore and discover who i really am. I just want to prioritize what's important for me right now
AnonymousAnonymous
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What you feel upon waking is truer than anything you experience asleep.
prakritiprakriti
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But why did i feel so nice something that i have never felt before with any guy. It's like i wanted her to continue. Now it's making me cringe thinking about the dream all over again
prakritiprakriti
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Hmm but both the time it felt good even after waking up.. And the fact that it felt good and special is not making me feel comfortable and am cringing .. I just don't know what i am anymore and sometimes i don't even stress about it. It's like i am just tired of all these thoughts
AnonymousAnonymous
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Maybe the thing to do is just accept the possibility and be ok with it?
prakritiprakriti
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Hmm i will try to. But everytime i do i don't feel good it's like my whole life would change if i am actually a lesbian. I have never had same sex fantasies before all this started happening. I could never hang out with my female friends like how I used to in the past
TeachercreatureTeachercreature
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I thought my whole life would change too. All the changes to my life were positive. I’m not recruiting you to come out or anything. Just saying that there’s nothing wrong with liking your dream, nothing wrong with being a lesbian, nothing wrong with being straight but getting turned on by the idea of some girl on girl action. I have a totally normal lesbian life, with a wife, kid, house, job, friends, etc. Back in the day, I almost married a man and would have had a normal life that way too, except that the connection with him was never anything close to what I’ve had with the women I’ve dated/married. Once I tried dating a woman, it was clear I’d been headed down the wrong path dating men. It felt more right than being “straight”. I think the key is, can you accept yourself? If being with a woman doesn’t feel like it fits you, then it probably doesn’t.
prakritiprakriti
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- 5y
I just don't know.. All i know is that i have always had fantasies about men. I do feel anxious thinking about being intimate with a female. I even used to dream of marrying my ex boyfriend. Right now i just don't know At the moment i only want to build up my career and want to stay away from any kind of attraction. Sometimes i also feel relieved thinking about being single all my life
TeachercreatureTeachercreature
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That’s avoidance, though. Don’t let this limit your life. ??
prakritiprakriti
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Like i have my whole life to explore but just not now. I just want all these thoughts to stop and make me return to how i was before this
prakritiprakriti
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- 5y
I am not avoiding it.. I know I cannot go out and explore now.. I just want to do what i want to do now as i said once i do get settled with everything i will explore.. For now i really just wish to focus on my dreams
prakritiprakriti
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- 5y
There are so many dreams i want to achieve now and i am hindering because of all such thoughts
prakritiprakriti
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- 5y
Also the dream that i had when i say i never had this feeling before it's not like i had butterflies or something like that. It was a weird feeling that i cannot just understand.. I am trying to figure it out from yesterday . Yes it did make me feel good and special but weird .. But i am not just being able to point out what exactly i felt. It was like that girl liked me and i was acknowledging i just don't know. It's like i just need an answer how I felt
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