As a child(around 4-6), me and this girl at my babysitters used to play girlfriend and boyfriend ?? I can't help but use this as some sort of proof. I wish I never did that, I cant remember if it felt right or not and it's scaring me ugh. Why did I have to do that whhhhhyyy

I hope so ? it's hard to think that other children also did some sort of Expirementation as well, I always thought I was the only one

@NocturnalGyal I did too and so have lots of people. Don't worry about it (and don't do any compulsions like overthinking)

@the future is vegan :) Do you have any tips on how to not give into overthinking about my past? It's been very automatic for me lately ?

@NocturnalGyal I struggle with that lots too! I'm gonna talk to my psychologist about my worries. If you get automatic compulsions, notice them (like, wait I'm doing a compulsion right now) and then do something that triggers your OCD. Like let's say you're thinking "it's just my OCD", then the trigger you should do would be "I can't know for sure if it's my OCD. It might be that I was actually attracted to the person/to that certain gender (your OCD is HOCD right?). And then try your hardest not to do any compulsions. Every time you do a compulsion, think something that triggers it and don't do any compulsions. Am I making any sense? You can ask me if I'm not :)

@the future is vegan :) Yeah I understand what you mean. Thank you :) I'll try this today

@NocturnalGyal Great! Try to be specific when you think something triggering. Like not just "it might be true". Try to put it more into words (it'll be more triggering, which is a good thing).

@the future is vegan :) Yea the more specific the better. Because alot of things are triggers for me right now ??

@NocturnalGyal You got this!

Thank you! It's just I fear that I might turn lesbian and have to leave my boyfriend ? it scares the shit out of me and so now I'm trying to look in my past for answers ugh

@NocturnalGyal I get it. It’s really hard to dwell in uncertainty.

And I am heterosexual.

@musicalchef Really??? Did you engage in kissing too???

@NocturnalGyal Yes and I think a bit more, too. I've worried about this endlessly throughout my life and EVERYONE I've ever asked has said it's normal child's play and "really, why are you worrying about that??" Lol I think I was closer to 7 years old.

@NocturnalGyal DON'T WORRY ?

@musicalchef Thank you so much. Although I know I'll still be worrying about this. At least I know that others have experienced that as well ??

@NocturnalGyal It will get better. I know the feeling! Many people have done this as kids. It'll be okay ?