OCD Is Telling Me I’m Being Harmed

I had blood work done for a test I was having a couple weeks ago. The phlebotomist hit my vein weird, my arm bled a lot, but eventually stopped. My arm is still sore several days later. The following week I had my bronchoscopy. The nurse used the same arm that was already sore to put in the IV for the meds. My arm started hurting, swelling and burning. I told her it hurt really bad but she ignored me; then I was out. It’s been a week and my arm still hurts, and my veins are tight and hard. Couple that with the white stuff all over my face, that nobody from the care team bothered to wipe off- which I didn’t know about until my husband asked me what it was, I got harm from my OCD! At first I chalked it up to the white stuff on my face was bad bedside manners. Now, I keep thinking that my doctors and everyone associated with the clinics are trying to harm me. This morning I had an incident with the fryer oven while toasting my bagel. I asked my husband about it and he says he didn’t notice anything. I was down to the last few bites of my bagel, and suddenly started feeling loopy. I spit it out and threw the rest away. After sitting awhile thinking of the doctors and phlebotomist etc… it dawned on me that it was my OCD telling me people were trying to harm me. I don’t know how to get over the fact that my arm hurts really bad and my doctor completely ignores my health concerns. I’ve been nauseous for the past two weeks or so - there is definitely something wrong! I think when they find out that you have OCD and/or Anxiety, they treat you differently, as if you’re making up the symptoms. I most certainly haven’t felt heard! My husband always says, what’s wrong now? It’s such a horrible feeling to hear him say that. Is this what you call Harm? Or is it associated with Harm? I’m not sure if this is triggering or not. I hope not.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d ago

It doesn't really matter what label it is, it's still OCD. Kudos to you for being mindful that it's OCD talking to you, not something external. If you're in therapy, you should mention this to your therapy. You deserve am "ATTAGIRL!!!" 😀

Becoming Whole

Date posted: 2d ago

@Steven55! Thank you!😊

MichelleV

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 2d ago

I’m sorry that you weren’t listened to by the nurses. It’s hard to be in a vulnerable position and to be ignored. I’m also sorry your husband says something that sounds dismissive. OCD is often not understood by those who don’t have it. But there is hope out there, to find ways to manage OCD and lessen the severity of your thoughts. This may help clarify health OCD: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/health-anxiety#h-illness-anxiety-disorder-iad And here is information on harm OCD: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-harm-ocd-guide-to-ocd-subtype

Becoming Whole

Date posted: Yesterday

@MichelleV Thank you.

TexasOCD41

Date posted: 2d ago

It sounds like health ocd. Basically you zero in on possible ways your health is being impacted. I get this. A headache is always a brain tumor, a rash is a cancer symptom, blurry vision is impending blindness, seasonal allergies is an undiagnosed autoimmune disorder, the list goes on. I will say this, doctors write EVERYONE off lol don't feel special, some just are not very good with patients. Having your arm be sore after a rough IV is normal. Im not sure where you were going with the bagel thing but to counteract the OCD... you have to just... accept it. You tell yourself " i am being harmed, but its ok. My arm hurts, that's normal, i have some crappy doctors, nothing special there. What else should i be doing right now" Also, when you worry about something, you will manifest ACTUAL PHYSICAL symptoms. your nausea is likely coming from anxiety about being harmed. You also have every right to get a new doctor if you don't like the one you have. But don't let OCD trick you into thinking everything or everyone is out to hurt you.

carol.xxx

Date posted: 25w ago

Please reply Im terrified need you guys.

HARM OCD VENT. I feel Terrified. I am so scared that I am going to act on a terrible harm ocd intrusive thought on someone else. The idea, the sensations the urges terrify me because it feels so scarily real. I feel like im a horrible person - a danger and i’m so guilty for having intrusive thoughts. I hate knives, I avoid looking at them in real life, in the kitchen as i’m so terrified that i will do sone thing terrible. I get excited when my boyfriend cones round as i always think he knows about my thoughts so at least he would restrain me if i were to do anything bad. I just feel so scared so guilty. I have this horrible sensation of urge running through my body- currently im on the verge of tears- i feel lost. My ocd has even latched onto pumpkin carving - scared i will do something bad. Now my OCD is just being like “ maybe your avoiding is all fake and your trying to cover your a bad person” “ what if u actually want to “. “ I want to “ “ You arnt actually trying to hard from harmful objects “ its TERRIFYING. please may someone reply - I’m terrified right now its like an intrusive FEELING is in my body. Sorry guys. I NEED reassurance at this point, I don’t know what to do.

Harm OCD

carol.xxx

Date posted: 16w ago

flare up please respond

Hey guys, I am having the worst HARM OCD episode I have had in a while. I am having disgusting, awful intrusive thoughts about harming others. It feels so real. It feels as if I am about to get up and just do it. The worst bit about it all Is I know I feel distressed and panicked. But where the thoughts are actually happening ( in my head) doesnt feel this feeling. This is making it feel worse as it really does feel like Im just going to do it. I am crying my eyes out because I know im petrified and dont want to hurt anyone im so scared. I have this terrible intrusive feeling in my that feels like its justifying the thoughts. Please can someone talk as I am scared Im crying I dont want know what to do I want this feeling gone I am so scared. I tell myself Id kill myself before hurting anyone else, but would i ? What if I actually do want to kill Please respond Im so scared

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andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w ago

Does anyone ever mimic/imagine harm OCD thoughts?

Does anyone imagine they are doing their harm thoughts during an action, making you feel like you acted on your thoughts? For example, someone gave me a hug and at the last second I imagined I was touching something I shouldn’t during the hug? I want to make it clear it’s something I have zero desire to do! But the problem is, I thought it on purpose and it makes me sick !! Obviously nothing happened but my mind is telling me that was me trying to do it. Even though it was physically impossible to do. Am I a monster or could this be OCD? I’m freaking out and don’t want to be here anymore. I feel like I’m the exception and that this isn’t OCD. I know I post about this stuff a lot but I’m struggling and don’t know what to do.

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