pocd need a therapist’s advice

@midnightsnack did you read my comments with the other person you still think i’m not a pedo

@123kate123 I have read them. And I don’t think you are. But as you know that reassurance won’t last!! So maybe for future moments when you get that intrusive thought, you can try accepting the uncertainty of the thought instead of engaging in a checking compulsion. I know it’s extremely hard though.

@midnightsnack Even if you get a therapist to reply to this, that won’t help either. Because reassurance doesn’t help!

@Mitu_001 i’m struggling. so i’m a nanny and i had an intrusive thought to like do something bad to him so i was very upset crying saying i don’t want to do it but as i was changing him i got closer to it to see if i would actually do it. my brain told me i was lying to myself and i don’t have ocd so i like ig actually tried to do the compulsion by leaning closer then the real me got grossed out. but deep down i know i wouldnf have done anything now im feel extremely guilty i even got closer. (edited)

@Mitu_001 have you ever like started to do the compultion then stopped

@123kate123 like almost felt like okay fine i’ll give into this compultion and try to then the real you comes out?

@Mitu_001 i’m just stressing because i wanna know if im the only one who almost gave in but then couldn’t because of my real self

@Mitu_001 have you like started to like act on something then stop????

@Mitu_001 like just to almost see if i’m lying to myself and im actually a pedo.. that’s what i was checking

@Mitu_001 does that make sense

@123kate123 Yes it does.

@Mitu_001 so do you think i am??

@123kate123 Waitt no ! I meant the compulsions

@Mitu_001 I am sorry !

@Mitu_001 the compultion makes sense but you still don’t think i am one ?

@123kate123 You are not.If you were you wouldnt care .If you were a bad person you wouldnt care .Okay?

@123kate123 It seems like you’re continuing to look for reassurance, and I don’t want to continue to provide it because it’s not actually helpful. But I wish you luck and I know you can overcome this!!!

@midnightsnack the only thing i’m just trying to figure out if im the only person who’s done that :(

@123kate123 Hi Kate, yes this is a compulsion and I have had this kind of “almost giving up” I don’t know how to explain it. It was a compulsion where I got closer to my baby’s private parts to show myself I don’t want to do nothing, but obviously didn’t help at all, I felt disgusting for weeks. With exposure therapy I felt much better.

@Ladybiggiechinanina this comment helped me so much. thank you