Harm ocd

You are okay. You really are. This is just OCD. That’s all it is. And you can beat it through treatment!! Have you tried ERP therapy? That can really help you get out of this

Are you letting the thoughts flow freely through your head? That is really important. If you try to fight off the thoughts, they only get worse. You need to train your brain that you don’t care if the thoughts are there or not. Let the thoughts scream at you all day if they want to. That’s fine. You are not going to care if the thoughts are there or not. My therapist explained it like this. Imagine a tree planted by a river. The leaves fall from the tree and float down the river. You watch them fall and float away, but you don’t do anything about them. The same is true with your thoughts. You can notice that they are there, but you shouldn’t try to stop them, push them away, or fix them. Just let them be in your head. Let them get angry and tell you whatever they want. They don’t matter. They are just thoughts. Then you can go and live your life, no matter what the thoughts are doing.

I feel the same, it is hard. Its especially difficult emotionally when it is about people you care about, family or otherwise. My OCD can switch from intrusive entirely false thoughts about myself, or that certain people in my family are horrible people. I realize iVe been irrationally thinking these thoughts for a long time, never believing them but they are hard to let go of. It also tends to happen when I try to envision a positive interaction with them in times when I am lonely. Its all messed up because I feel it has ruined my relationships with..pretty much everyone in my life. Unable to be the person I want to be around them.

I feel the same! It will pass!!