Holl1
- Date posted
- 15w
OCD
So I’ve noticed that my OCD has calmed down, I’m getting less intrusive thoughts but I feel more uncertain than ever. Is this normal for recovery?
Honeyshark Honeyshark
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 15w
Yup. OCD can cause intrusive feelings too.
anonymous00981anonymous00981
- Date posted
- 15w
I feel the same way right now. I’m constantly thinking about what less anxiety means, have I changed, etc. That feeling of incompleteness is often worse than a spiral because at least in a spiral you were certain of not wanting your fear to be true but now it’s like a weird state.
Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 15w
@anonymous0325 Yess! This is exactly how I feel.
Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 15w
@anonymous0325 Do you feel uncomfortable with it too, like I keep getting panic attacks but I don’t know why?
anonymous00981anonymous00981
- Date posted
- 15w
@Holl1 It’s very uncomfortable and makes me want to ruminate and figure it out all over again. I’m trying to just sit with it to avoid going through the cycle again but I’m like “why don’t I feel back to normal RIGHT AWAY??”
Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 15w
@lostinOCD I’m not taking any medication. It just feels strange not having the thoughts around and it feels weird saying that because all I wanted was the thoughts to be gone.
Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 15w
@anonymous0325 I know, the problem is with me I hate uncertainty I think to myself why can’t I feel certain about this theme. Now that the thoughts have calmed down it feels worse than ever.
anonymous00981anonymous00981
- Date posted
- 15w
@Holl1 Yeah, I literally hate it. You would think that after the anxiety from the intrusive thoughts went away that certainty would come right back.
Tea and HoneyTea and Honey
- Date posted
- 14w
Yes!!!!!!! Uncertainty is such a hallmark of OCD
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- 14w
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Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 14w
@Dragonmom Is it normal to feel depressed with uncertainty because I’ve woke up today feeling very down and I keep getting doubt thoughts
Andi 🤓☝️Andi 🤓☝️
- Date posted
- 14w
Are you doing ERP treatment? If so you may be recovering and your ocd sees that as a warning and trying to pull you back in called a backdoor spike. If not, you may be experiencing derealization/depersonalization where it feels like your ocd symptoms are getting better but in reality it's your brain using a protective mechanism due to intense stress or trauma. Ocd can be pretty traumatic, since the core themes are stuff you absolutely fear. It feels like you're "numb" and "foggy". When I get like this, I take it as a "thank you brain, i am taking a break from all this distress even if I feel very very uncertain. Even if I feel like I changed. Even if I feel like I have to solve."
Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 14w
@Andi 🤓☝️ I’m not doing erp treatment, but I am familiar with it. The past week I’ve been in fear but living in the uncertainty, today I woke up and the anxiety is gone but I feel really depressed and I keep getting emotional because it feels like I don’t know what I want & I don’t know how to push through it.
Holl1Holl1
- Date posted
- 14w
@Andi 🤓☝️ It feels confusing because I thought once the thoughts would settle, I’d feel happier and be able to move on but I just feel sad and more unsure.
Andi 🤓☝️Andi 🤓☝️
- Date posted
- 14w
@Holl1 Ocd loves doing this. It literally thrives when you feel vulnerable. You feel sad because you feel the uncertainty. That is distress, and it's ocd at play. Youre aware the thoughts are less, and the disorder is taking advantage of this fact and twisting something positive to something worse. Im sorry you feel so depressed. Hang in there and ride it out like you have in the past. You won't always feel this way. ❤️🩹
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