Some advice please

Yeah I understand those feelings especially when you travel to places your not too familiar whenever I travel or go to places I avoid sketchy areas just to be safe is that something similar to what u struggling?

One thing that helps me when traveling is making sure I take things that can distract me like gaming, fidget items, headphones, reading material, download some podcasts. Stuff like that. I hope this helps. Where are you traveling?

Travel can induce OCD symptoms for me too. The specific fears can vary. One thing that may help, that I’m not too good at, is to focus on the positive aspects of the trip, the things you will see and get to do. Traveling with family and friends helps too.

No advice But because of intrusive travel thoughts I am unable to travel at the moment. So I definitely feel what you going through

It sounds like you’re holding a lot right now, especially with something that should be exciting like an anniversary trip. The fact that you're still moving forward with it despite the fear says a lot about your strength. Anticipatory anxiety is a common part of OCD, especially when travel has been linked to a past triggering experience. It’s not unusual that the anxiety itself can stir up intrusive thoughts, which then loops into more anxiety—it’s exhausting. Name what’s happening: Try saying to yourself, “This is anticipatory anxiety. My brain is trying to protect me, but it’s misfiring.” Labeling it can reduce its power. Shift focus from content to process: Instead of asking “What if I get harm thoughts?” try noticing “Ah, here’s the OCD doing its thing again.” Daily mini-exposures: Practice facing little bits of uncertainty now—like looking at photos of Toronto, packing a small bag, or sitting with travel-related thoughts without engaging them. It builds tolerance slowly. Self-compassion: Remind yourself that your goal is not to have a perfect trip—it’s to be there despite the discomfort. That's already brave. It’s also beautiful that you want to enjoy new experiences. That desire is something to hold onto, because it’s bigger than the fear.