peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I feel bad in my chest I cant cry

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Andreww very wise direction

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

Oh thank you so much!

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

That’s so good to know!

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

???

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Great to know! Andreww that's great.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

No no no you aren’t a devil !! The reason you’re having those thoughts is because you don’t want to. If I told you not to think of a purple elephant you probably would because your brain wants certainty. This does NOT make you a bad person trust me !!! And that’s not true , humans think scary thoughts occasionally , we all have weird thoughts from time to time. You’re in a rough place right now and it can make you feel numb , it’s not your fault bud

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Thank you guys for being here keep helping others❤️

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

Peter, I’ve been trying to reach out to you for the last hour but my app wasn’t working. Please talk to me.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

I spoke to him on Instagram , he’s okay !

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Thank you soo much guys for this love it means the world to me❤️

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

That’s what we’re here for❤️. It’s okay. I’m sorry if you were worried. I wasn’t able to open the app either.

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Can you take some time to focus on your breathe? In and out in and out etc.

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

Talk to me bud what’s on your mind ?

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Im so lost.im thinking of my dead bestfriends sexually while watching tv and anything dirty come by even if a dirty joke anything i think of him..all people around me posting emotional things about him and loved him and respected him and i thknk this of him .hw was an angel How could i think this to him how could i think this of people have cancer.i don’t understand anything i feel like im a devil

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Im a devil! Humans cant do that human cant did what i have done Human feel and love

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Peter. Please remember. OCD goes after the most twisted sick disgusting thoughts because they're socially taboo and they upset you to your core. Because nice thoughts don't have the same affect.

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

But I’m alone i feel helpless and i really want to die now

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

You aren’t alone , I’m here for you ! The thoughts clearly upset you. Nobody who likes thoughts like that would worry about them. They’re egodystonic which means they don’t reflect you

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

How can I help you?

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

You don’t know how crazy i am you dont know what i have done or what these thoughts are I feel them I don’t have anything real since inwas born ,no real love.no real friend.no reall felings Everything is fake so am i Trust me I’m not like you inwish i was

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

People who are mentally unstable usually don’t realize they’re mentally unstable so I don’t agree with that bud. Whatever you did is behind you , it doesn’t have to stay with you. You shouldn’t be held back by your mistakes since you’ve changed. Regardless , it could be your anxiety making you THINK what you did was really bad when it’s totally NORMAL :)

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Nobody can help me noone know I really appreciate it

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

Yes they can bud

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

You aren't alone!! This is the face of ocd

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I have a dear friend on this app

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

She talks to me every single day she tried her best. But i cant get help

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

This is what I’m living and why its so horrible to die

andrewt_

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 5y

But you can get better though. You can actually reshape your brain to help you , it takes practice but scientists have proven that it’s possible ! So hope is real my friend trust me ??

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I’m really not a good person not only for what I’m thinking but i know i who i am

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

But I’m sad that i never wished to be this person

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Are you seeing a therapist?

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

But I’m who I’m and I can’t accept it

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Inwent to a one he doesn’t help he gave me medication that doesn’t help me

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Belive me I have a different bad nature that you all don’t have

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

You are not your thoughts. Your fighting them that's why they re digging in.

flowerlady

Date posted: 5y

Did you get a diagnosis?

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Noo

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

I know you’re sad Peter, but please hang in there.

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Here she is my dear friend❤️

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Flowerlady this mess is not for omly thoughts

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I have dine things that no one did i have done things really bad

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

Really horrible things

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I was young but i know what I’m doing

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

Peter, those things that you did are not who you are anymore.

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I know bu i really cant ser myself as good anymore ..and these thoughts make me feel like my thoughts my behaviors and everything i do or think is from a devil

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

@peterateff But it they are not from a devil or you and what you did has nothing to do with your thoughts now.

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

We’re here to help you too.

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

It seems that there’s no help

Catlady

Date posted: 5y

It’s normal to feel that way when you’re struggling, but there is help.

peterateff

Date posted: 5y

I’m sorry taht i made you worried the app was enable to open

Anonymous

Date posted: 14w

Chest pain

I just had a really awful chest pain that felt like my chest was exploding and im really terrified. I feel like maybe it was a heart attack but idk. I've had many ekgs and a chest x ray and they don't find anything wrong with me. Idk what this means anymore im so sick of being scared that ill die. Can anyone relate at all? It comes out of nowhere

ocdlife_

Date posted: 8w

11 months and im so done

im so tired of trying to express my feeling and feeling so dumb. im so angry and my chest hurts from sadness and stress all the time with no one to talk to, this is so lonely. the only friend i had got annoyed with me and said maybe this is happening because i dont listen. i hate this so much and i gained so much weight from stress. i cant look pretty or happy if i tried.

nae nae

Date posted: 7w

Tired of feeling like a bad person

I genuinely can't help but feel irredeemable over every little mistake made or regret I've had. It's so up and down, but I just miss the certainty. Knowing "this is who I am." I'm so disconnected from myself. Like, I'm really, really trying. Today is really rough... I got triggered the other night, and it's been hell since. I've been fighting seeking reassurance. I want it so, so incredibly bad, but I know it won't help me :( Some days, I just don't want to be here. It's funny because yesterday I felt amazing until I got triggered. I just immediately spiraled after that. I don't know. Does it genuinely get better? Will therapy really help me? Sometimes, I think maybe this is the best it'll get, and that scares me. Sorry for the vent. I'm just feeling so overwhelmingly anxious right now. I can't even cry (due to Zoloft). It feels claustrophobic somehow, having all these emotions trapped inside of my body with nowhere to go 😭

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