Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
Struggling
I am STRUGGLING. Ugh why did I allow this to happen
needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 27w
What's going on? You can talk to me about it if you want to
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Yes please!!
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Hey friend. Are you still here?
needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 27w
@Anony1314 - I'm sorry, that sounds really horrible to go through. OCD attacks what you value most, so this makes sense because you love and care about your children so much, and that must make the thoughts all the more terrifying. Groinal responses can be caused by various things, including anxiety, which can create a sort of awful cycle. Know that POCD arousal is not the same as sexual arousal—this is referred to as arousal non-concordance, and it’s a well-documented psychological phenomenon that is entirely distinct from sexual arousal. I know that that's probably not going to help much, though. OCD is irrational. I'm sorry I can't be of more help! :(
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID So you're unsure if I'm a monster or not friend? Do I need to turn myself in? I'm so sorry for asking this. I just feel like a terrible mother now
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Sorry friend
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Hey friend
needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 27w
@Anony1314 - You're not a monster, but OCD is!
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID So this is all OCD? Sorry I was confused when you said you were sorry you couldn't help more
needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 27w
@Anony1314 - I just meant because I can't do anything beyond trying to calm you down 🥲
needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 27w
@Anony1314 - Yes, OCD is just being mean to you pretty much
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Thanks friend. Even though this all happened as I wrote it and felt very wanted? It's still my OCD
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID And sorry for asking something else
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Just really struggling my friend
needtoescapetheV0IDneedtoescape...
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- Date posted
- 27w
@Anony1314 - Wishing you well! :)
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID I'm okay although it all happened as I wrote it and it felt very real and wanted in the moment? Still OCD?
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Hey friend!
Anony1314Anony1314
- Date posted
- 27w
@needtoescapetheV0ID Hey friend can you answer my question, or do you not want to friend?
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