Please help 😭

@sparklebark I have told her. I’m not sure if she really took it on board although she has OCD herself and has conquered it. She said she runs a structured programme and if I was already getting triggered then I’d need more help from meds before she carries on

@hereintheUK … it sounds like this therapist has only offered you one solution. mental health is not one size fits all. personally, i need to have a therapist who helps me work around roadblocks, and not give me just one option.

@hereintheUK Oh my I’m starting with a new one i’m hoping it’s not this one that you have because it would definitely trigger me.

@Hope1 It won’t be the same one I’m in the UK. I think my OCD is just gripping on tighter as it knows I’m trying to combat it and I can’t see past it yet, f***king thing never wants me to believe it’s OCD

@hereintheUK I know exactly how you feel

@Hope1 It’s literal hell every day 😭😭😭

@hereintheUK Yup

@hereintheUK I’ve been praying, and my mom keeps telling me to remember that I am praying and I’m standing from a place of victory not praying for victory. God goes before me. But it is a struggle.

@#happiness I’m going to but I also suspect her therapy technique so far is partly to blame, it’s just totally riled my OCD!

@hereintheUK They say things get worse before they get better w therapy

@hereintheUK What is her therapy technique if you don't mind sharing a little bit more about it? It seems odd to me that she doesn't feel comfortable doing therapy with you anymore. I've never heard of a therapist saying that, but perhaps I'm just ignorant or naive.

@Drew777 She said seeing as my anxiety has spiked it would be unethical of her to continue unless I increase my meds dose. I’ve posted about this last night, she tries insisting that it’s all just thoughts, and whilst yes I understand that, using the “thoughts are just thoughts” mantra doesn’t work with me expect to aggravate my OCD and make it feel very real because it’s based in something about an event that may or may not have occurred, like how does using that help for people with real event and false memory? It doesn’t, and so she’s just aggravated it all with this when I had had a reasonably calm month before starting with her

@hereintheUK I don't entirely know what she means by it being "unethical" of her to continue giving you therapy unless you increase your dose of meds. Why would it suddenly become anymore ethical than it is right now if your dosage was higher? Would she just feel better because you might not be quite as anxious as you are right now? I don't fully understand her reasoning. I understand her approach and technique with "thoughts are just thoughts", but I agree that a technique like that can't be applied in every given circumstance, especially with your particular theme of false memory OCD. I'm not saying that there is no basis for it with false memory OCD, but I think it should be applied lightly and in the right timing with patients. It definitely sounds like she has caused you to spiral to some degree. I'm not saying it's all on her, but it also doesn't sound like she has done much to help either, though.

@Drew777 So I would say it’s normal for it to spike your anxiety (especially in the beginning) as that is kind of the whole point of ERP. It sounds like your therapist is lacking confidence in her own abilities and/or training and doesn’t know what to do. I’m sorry they would put it on you like that. I would suggest reaching out to a member advocate for help. Either way, I would request another therapist via the NOCD web portal. A good therapist should have a few techniques up their sleeve to find one that works for you. I refused meds when I started at NOCD because I was trying to get pregnant. I knew I needed them and so did my therapist, but she continued to treat me and help me and I’m glad I was able to continue with it. She had more faith in me than I did and I’m in a lot better place now. Prior to NOCD I treated my OCD with only meds and now know that that was NOT a fix. Good luck to you….keep hanging in there!!

@Anonymous Sorry meant to tag @hereintheUK

@Drew777 REBT with ERP. She’s not a NOCD therapist I’ve had 3 of them and got nowhere and suffered therapy harm from the last one in February it was really awful. She’s def caused me to spiral. My OCD just keeps screaming back “it’s not just thoughts though!” And “what if it’s real?” Like how does telling people it’s all thoughts work for those with real event? It’s really scared me how much my OCD makes it all feel real and like when you’ve lost sight a bit just from her insistence that I look at it all as just thoughts. OCD doesn’t respond so logic we know this. I’m just feeling lost now 😔