Today I was trying to figure out something at work, and some people were watching and I was taking longer than expected. I said to myself, “why am I so stupid” and I felt like I was angry and I felt like I was angry at God. I’m worried because I felt like I cursed God in my heart. I’m worried because who am I to be mad at God. I want to have reverence, and I just don’t know what to do. It feels like my heart is hard.
When I run into this , I ask God for peace and comfort and ask for forgiveness for my mistakes and lapses of disrespect. I figure if I am sincere He will forgive me of my mistakes and transgressions.
@777Q Can I ask for some support please? 18+? On Pocd if that’s okay?
@GreenTurtle098 Sorry, I am unfamiliar with that type .
Fellow Christian with ocd here - God already knows your heart and your thoughts more than you do. He is with you, and He is in Sovereign control. I know it's so so confusing and scary to be a Christian with Ocd. Trust that God made you and lives in you through the Holy spirit, who will reveal to you all that you should know and guide you in the right path. God's voice does not condemn, it convicts for restoration and truth. Trust in Him and do not lean on your own understanding. Trust that if you were saved by grace you are being sanctified by grace and kept by grace. All is grace, and He has more than you will ever need. Stay faithful and keep your focus on Him. God bless my friend 🧡
@Anonymous Thank you so much! This is encouraging
@Anonymous Can I ask for some support please? 18+? On Pocd if that’s okay?
Hi CJ_022. Even if you did get angry at God, you're confessing that you did and wanting to turn away from your anger (repentance), which is good. It sounds to me like you do have reverence for God based on how you're feeling. Also, I don't believe your heart is hard, if it were, then you wouldn't care about your actions. But you do care, and you want to have a growing relationship with God. Just remember that God loves you. He doesn't expect you to be perfect. Don't use your inability to be perfect as an excuse to sin, but also don't let your fear of not being perfect or good enough keep you from having peace with God. Find a proper balance as you continue walking with God day by day. I hope this was helpful friend. :)
@Drew777 Thank you for that bro, and amen!
@Drew777 Can I ask for some support please? 18+? On Pocd if that’s okay?
@GreenTurtle098 I can try to help provide you with some advice, my friend. POCD isn't a theme I'm very familiar with, though. I know what POCD is, but it just isn't one I typically deal with all that much personally. I'll help however I can, though. What's the situation?
My ocd is going off the hinges. I can’t stop thinking God is angry at me and hates me and it’s weird. And can’t stop thinking everyone hates me. I can’t stop thinking that no matter what I try I’ll never get better. This sucks
Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
Just a little side note: I know this post has been made MANY times by me. However, I had a therapist respond to my post today saying that I need to reach out to my therapist on this because the context was not clear. This made me more stressed and ruminate more. It's not the therapist fault; but not I wonder if I'm really the monster. I'm a Christian mom who feels like I've ruined my life. My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt her that I might as well do something else because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it and causing another feeling (I literally had to question what to do during this and the only thing I could come up with was to move my elbow) but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side area. Which caused another groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. Then I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me. PLEASE tell me if I am a monster. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD?
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