Religious OCD, ashamed of my thoughts

We weren't created perfect. I know this is confusing but I simultaneously believe in God AND evolution. Knowing that we still have lizard brains to some degree REALLY makes so many things our bodies/minds do make sense. There's a reason OCD exists, there's a reason millions of people have irrational anxiety about irrational things. God knows that we weren't created perfect. God knows the world is insane, God knows that mental illness is real...just like physical illness. The universe is full of uncontrollables...but you can CHOOSE how to live your life even in the "shadow of the valley of death" that can, at times, be the mind.

Martin Luther, John Bunyan, St Ignatius of Loyola all had religious OCD. All extremely influential Christians. I believe the thoughts the Bible refers to controlling are more about a willfully desire and possession of someone elses beauty. Which can sound like OCD but it's not! Noticing someone is beautiful is not lust, it has been misinterpreted in my opinion. I was in the same place you not too long ago! It does get better!

its a Satanic attack. Happens to Christians all the time. Read Ephesians.

I think you might love this writing from Hannah Whitall Smith. Basically, she is saying - "don't let the OCD thought in and disturb you (which it does without permission), and then tell you that you are horrible for having the thought!" What I love the most is that she isn't even talking about OCD, she wrote this over 100 years ago. I find it interesting that spiritual warfare and OCD can look very similar... "It seems hardly worthwhile to say that temptation is not sin, and yet much distress arises from not understanding this fact. The very suggestion of wrong seems to bring pollution with it; and the poor tempted soul begins to feel as if it must be very bad indeed, and very far off from God, to have had such thoughts and suggestions. It is as though a burglar should break into a man’s house to steal, and, when the master of the house begins to resist him and to drive him out, should turn round and accuse the owner of being himself the thief. It is the enemy’s grand ruse for entrapping us. He comes and whispers suggestions of evil to us, – doubts, blasphemies, jealousies, envyings, and pride, and then turns round and says, “Oh, how wicked you must be to think of such things! It is very plain that you are not trusting the Lord; for if you had been, it would have been impossible for these things to have entered your heart.” This reasoning sounds so very plausible that we often accept it as true, and so come under condemnation, and are filled with discouragement." Also, a few references you may find helpful: 1 - Mark De Jesus. Just look him up on youtube, or you can easily find his website. He has written a few books....he REALLY GETS Christians with OCD. 2 - I wrote a book called "Waging War Against OCD - A Christian Approach to Victory." I write about alot of the things God has taught me in fighting against this disorder. I hope this helps!