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False memory
Has false memory OCD affected you so badly that you feel that a lot of your memories period are unclear, vague, fuzzy and can’t recall correctly?
Has false memory OCD affected you so badly that you feel that a lot of your memories period are unclear, vague, fuzzy and can’t recall correctly?
yeah. if i could add to that, i also feel like i can't even really be sure of things im doing in the moment or maybe moments after i've done something. it's really strange. like i'll move my bag and be really sure that im moving my bag, my brain will be like, 'well did you though?🤨' and then it's like my memory had been wiped and i can't remember but i still feel sure. idk if it still fits in with false memories but i have noticed it after i started experiencing false memories
@moon027097 That’s a great way to put it. Grounding exercises have been helpful. I really like the 5-4-3-2-1 and I try to repeat it a few times to remind myself of my surroundings and engage the 5 senses
Sometimes I'll do something and know I did it, but my OCD will make me feel like I have to do it again because it says I didn't do it, even though I know I did. Sometimes I give into the compulsion of acting on what my OCD tells me about it, and other times I don't.
YES SO BADLY.
I can’t remember much at all.
I some ways, yes I don’t know if this is exactly false memory OCD but I will a lot of times gets a intrusive thought and my intrusive thoughts want me to figure out what type of intrusive thought it is, do a compulsion, and/or do a specific type of ERP and if I don’t and just forget it and/or move on it threatens by saying something along the lines of “This is important and different form the last intrusive thought if you don’t do what I say then the intrusive thoughts you have have/had about killing your family is correct and you just do it or else your evading the truth.”
Can it feel like you literally remember a false memory happening? And it feels like the memory has always been there and you vividly remember it happening that way? Because I don’t even know if I’m experiencing a false memory or not but god it feels so fucking real. Like I literally remember it happening. But what’s weird is the original memory was kind of different. 2 years later, the memory is not the same, but it feels like I literally remember it happening. And in this memory, I’m fucking snapping. I’m acting on my thoughts. I feel like a fucking psycho. I hope this is just OCD
How do you know the difference :( I genuinely cannot keep living in this torment. it all started with an ‘intrusive thought’ where I had like a hazy flash of something reading an article. and I remember thinking ‘what if’ and ‘what is this’ and then that intrusive thought turned into me ‘remembering’ something else. which caused me panic. then I started trying to find evidence because it contradicted what I remembered this entire time. this was last year in like september. fast forward to march this year, it came back up- but this time stronger and with more ‘details’ and what nots. and I’ve been ruminating on it since then trying to remember and connect and It’s like I’ve added all of these details. but are they real? or is this just my OCD? I just feel like if it were real I would have never been able to keep it to myself. but also what if it was so traumatic that I blocked it out? because it all makes NO sense for me to do something like that. but it also fits what I was thinking at the time. idk
can a false memory feel very very very real? because i literally don’t know if something happened or not. absolutely no clue but it feels so real
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