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Hey friends
Just trying to stay off here as much as I can! Hope you are all doing well.
Just trying to stay off here as much as I can! Hope you are all doing well.
Great to hear! I’m also taking a small step away from the app, it definitely starts to become a compulsive habit to check on here! Glad to see you’re distancing yourself, I look forward to seeing you improve!
@Julian2006 Thanks friend!! 💗
@Anony1314 Hey friend I'm struggling so bad right now, could I please talk to you
@Anony1314 Ah shoot! I’m so sorry friend, I haven’t been on the app recently! What’s up?
@Julian2006 It's okay friend!!! I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around grazing my clothed chest). Of course, that caused anxious groinals. It didn't feel bad or necessarily good in the moment, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot to make the feeling continue. It was like an automatic reaction to the anxious groinals. I had no thoughts. So I continued to have the groinals. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened. Mind you, after ruminating all day about it, I can't say the groinals were just a good feeling. I think they were more anxiety induced and gave me that feeling in that area. Almost like the urge to pee feeling and made me feel so anxious if that makes sense? I was frozen in this spot and moved him back towards me for it to happen again and idk why other than I just wasn't thinking. Did I just hurt my nephew without consciously realizing it till after? Is this OCD? I would never intentionally hurt a kid, but it's like I wasn't even thinking when this happened
@Julian2006 Hey friend. I notice you never responded to my comment on here. I'm struggling pretty badly. I just need someone to help me.
@Anony1314 Ack, I’m so sorry friend, I’ve been struggling real bad recently too, and I’ve been avoiding the app a lot. You know how I feel about you. You felt an intrusive urge, you never hurt anybody. I’m sorry if my response is short and brief, everything’s just really triggering and hard to me, but I don’t think you’re a monster or anything. We have to try and practice than uncertainty and learn how to let go of these things, no matter how real, hurtful, and scary they are. I’m struggling with it myself, but we can get through it. I believe in you, I’m sharing nothing but love for you 💜
@Julian2006 Thank you so much friend. I'm sorry if this triggered you too. You know I'm here for you if you just need to vent. Sending hugs your way sweet friend
@Anony1314 It’s okay! I’m working through it, one step at a time I hope! Thank you so much, you’ve got this too! Hang in there!
@Julian2006 Thank you!! 💗
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@HopeForToday Yes friend. It's hard, but I'm trying to not at least not post on here as often. Have you seen my posts before friend? I like to get support from you OCD conquerers
@HopeForToday And sorry it makes you depressed friend
@HopeForToday Exactly friend. It's hard to stay off. Could I ask you for your opinion on something, you don't have to if you don't want.
@HopeForToday If you don't mind
Hope you're doing well, too! 🩷 You're doing an amazing job, friend! :)
@nae nae Thanks friend!! You are too💗
I’m finding this a great app. Is there any recommendation for how often it should be visited? Like not asking for a specific amount of time or whatever, I just find that maybe I shouldn’t always be reading stuff on the topic? Anyone have a balance they recommend?
I am (or was)! Yesterday, I started to get really anxious for unknown reasons, and then (just my luck) I got triggered by something online 😭 It's always so... humbling. I'm trying to sit with the intrusive thoughts at this moment, but I'm just feeling really icky and a bit down. With OCD, it's bound to happen at some point, I guess. Even without OCD, you're going to have good and bad days. It's just how life is 🥲 I'm just afraid of being slingshot back to how I felt a few months ago, which I know realistically WON'T happen, but my brain doesn't want me to think logically lol. I'm also afraid that the repetitive nature of OCD intrusive thoughts will somehow alter who I am as a person, making my fears a reality? It's weird. Classic OCD, but it still makes me anxious! I have been doing better not engaging with these thoughts, but occasionally, I'll accidentally argue back. It doesn't help because then my brain says, "You're just in denial, and you're actually a bad person!" And whenever I say anything in opposition of something against my morals, it feels performative or fake for some reason 🫠 I'm just venting at this point, I'm sorry! Anyway, if anyone reads this, I hope you're doing okay, and if not, I hope things look up soon. Take care of yourselves, stay hydrated, and rest well!
Guys I will be leaving this app honestly I don’t feel safe here I’ve been lied on and reported and attacked even though I’ve been trying to help others and keep everything positive sadly I kinda feel I’ve been unjustly judged for something I didn’t even do and I’m a black woman so it come from a deep place when people just lie and attack me thank you to others for being kind ♥️
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