ocdsuxxx
- Date posted
- 12w
Help
My brain is making me feel like I wanna do the harm to my family … and is questioning how haven’t I done it yet like wtf??? My thoughts sound crazy
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
- Date posted
- 12w
Ok I will explain it scientifically. OCD is a malfunction in the signaling system of the brain so think about it this way. Brain sends intrusive thought (false signal) “what if I want to hurt my family” in your case and because there’s no real basis behind that thought your brain makes something up as an excuse about the intrusive thought (false signal) so in your case: “what if I want to hurt my family”(false signal)”because I want to do it””why haven’t I done it yet if I want to”(excuse the brain makes to cover up the false signal because there’s no reality behind it). The brain is not you. The brain is a system that lives within you and the body is also not you. So since the body is controlled by the brain when it sends false signal and such as “I want to hurt my family” it will make you body feel as you actually want to. But you are not the brain and you are not the body. You are the awareness and since the awareness sees a contradiction with what the brain suggests like you clearly see that the thoughts are fucked up means that THEY ARE NOT COMING FROM YOU. They are coming from the brain which is different system within you. You are not the brain brain is not you
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
- Date posted
- 12w
@geodrimilis So if the brain is malfunctioning the body will too
ocdsuxxxocdsuxxx
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- 12w
@geodrimilis The thoughts also are everyday constant which makes me feel psycho like my Mom wouldn’t stop talking and my brain said if I had a knife I’d my hand in stab her :(
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 12w
@ocdsuxxx Ocds work and purpose is to make it feel real if it didn’t feel real it wouldn’t be ocd and it wouldn’t bother you
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 12w
@ocdsuxxx Yeah they’re everyday and constant because it’s called OBSESSIVE compulsive disorder
Hope1 Hope1
- Date posted
- 12w
@geodrimilis This is a very interesting explanation. I have to probably read this over again Currently my OC spiral and it’s just hard for me to understand and comprehend all of this but I really want to understand this.
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 12w
@Hope1 It’s the truth. Intrusive thought(false signal) —> “maybe I like it” kind of thought (cover up for the false signal) —> anxiety and obsession (your true self noticing that something is wrong)
ocdsuxxxocdsuxxx
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- 12w
@geodrimilis I just can’t take it my brain is saying I can’t watch a movie and I should be harming my family I’m so sick over this I’m confused stressed
Hope1 Hope1
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- 12w
@geodrimilis Yes, I need to like, screenshot this and read this multiple times so my brain can comprehend it
ocdsuxxxocdsuxxx
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- 12w
@geodrimilis I’ve also said out loud when angry l wanna stab them so I feel truly insane
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
- Date posted
- 12w
@ocdsuxxx Don’t worry everything will be okay it’s all ocd👍
geodrimilisgeodrimilis
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- 12w
@ocdsuxxx That’s a mental surrender because you are tired of fighting the thoughts for me since it’s about being gay there were times when I would say “fuck it I might be gay” but here I am still straight
Love1another<3Love1another<3
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 12w
I think half of the problem is that perhaps you need to research more on Harm Ocd so you can learn more about how these thoughts and feelings you are experiencing is very expected with this disorder. I think the other half of the problem is your compulsions like making posts seeking reassurance and confessing each new thought you have. I can tell this has been bringing you further down the Ocd spiral and making you more scared over these weeks. Compulsions make everything worse. The answer is trying to resist 🔑
ocdsuxxxocdsuxxx
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- 12w
@OneDayAtATimee I’m so scared :(
ocdsuxxxocdsuxxx
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- 12w
@OneDayAtATimee My boyfriend also just died so I’m not okay and my brain tells me because he died and I’m sad I’m gunna harm my family it’s so much :(
Love1another<3Love1another<3
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 12w
@ocdsuxxx I’m so sorry to hear about your loss :( ❤️🩹 That really is horrible to deal with and stressful events flare up our OCD even more. I can give you some tips for the OCD you’re dealing with. #1. radical acceptance- accept that you have harm OCD so it’s gonna constantly send you scary urges and harm thoughts that suck. OCD also gives chemical showers that send you lots of yucky feelings like terrible anxiety. This is all expected ‼️ When you consistently resist compulsions, all of that will feel much less constant and it won’t feel like much of an issue to you anymore in the future #2 Response prevention: The scary truth is that I can promise you that if you continue to constantly ruminate, seek reassurance, and confess all your thoughts all the time on these posts- you’re not gonna recover from Ocd and you’re gonna feel worse. It’s great to feel you’re not alone and it’s great to ask for Ocd education/advice, but these confession posts are making you very very sick. When you try your hardest to consistently resist those compulsions- I can promise that you will start to feel relief and you will start recovering 👍 I know how terrifying these harm thoughts feel because I’ve had the exact same theme and the exact same thoughts ❤️🩹 But you really need to at least try to stop compulsing so you can feel better. It feels terrible at first, especially with all the real life stress you’re going through, but you will start to feel at least a tiny bit of relief from Ocd even in a few days
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