Intrusive thoughts are supposed to be unwanted but when I’m mad I’m saying out loud “ I wanna stab them” and I feel rage. That doesn’t feel like ocd anymore I’m stressed and my brain also wants me to cover my dogs nose and suffocate him . I’ve covered it before and got anxiety and I’m scared I acted on an intrusive thought by doing that so I’m just psycho I guess about to snap
You’re not a psycho, u covered his nose to silence the intrusive thoughts, not to act on them. You’re not a bad person and you’re not about to snap or do anything, you’re okay.
Big difference yes, you didnt WANT to do it or enjoy it you just thought you had to and got so stuck to your thoughts that you did. Do you have a NOCD therapist? You're likely not going to get OCD help in a hospital, NOCD therapists can meet pretty regularly too, so you may get a little more help a little more quickly.
Hey, it's ok to seek help, it's courageous to seek help for mental challenges. If we have a broken bone, there's no question we need medical help, why should it be any different when it's help we need for mental stuff? We're here to support each other along the path to healing, and we certainly support you along your path. May God bless you in ways you can't expect. :-)
I know it's incrediblyyy difficult but you just have to trust our word for it right now- all of us have been saying its harm Ocd and that your urges are truly unwanted (even though Ocd makes you feel like you want them). If it was wanted you wouldn't be scared and making these posts. The only reason you feel so terrified right now is because you've been compulsing so much for a long time, such as making confession/reassure-seeking posts about your every thought- for a couple weeks or months. So with all that said, going to a hospital is not necessary and it's a compulsion, as your are not a danger and you can still be treated with meds & ERP, even at home :) If you do go to a hospital, that's okay. Just make sure that the workers know you have Harm Ocd so that they don't take your intrusive thoughts seriously, as if they're a threat (because they're not). A lot of therapists and hospital workers aren't educated on Ocd so I don't want them to make a mistake and actually think you're a real danger and keep you locked in involuntarily. I just want you to be cautious of this because I've seen this experience cause way more harm than good to some Ocd sufferers
@OneDayAtATimee Either way she will be fin. I’m pretty sure a psychiatrist will talk to her and release her
@ERP is the way to be - Hopefully they would release her fast yes, if the psychiatrists are knowledgeable on Harm ocd 🙏 but sadly that’s not always the case 100% :( Tracie Ibrahim (a therapist & support group leader here) was locked in for over 10 years because many therapists don't understand OCD harm intrusive thoughts and they mistakenly thought Tracie was actually homicidal. So it's safe to be cautious with our words and how we voice our Ocd harm fears to professionals- making sure we give a disclaimer that its Harm ocd and unwanted intrusive thoughts
@OneDayAtATimee I just feel like even tho I post these things I’m lying and I’m a psycho
@OneDayAtATimee I’ve been in the hospital psych ward three times longest was two weeks. My psych and a social worker understood. The nurses asked me why I had homocidal thoughts :(
@ocdsuxxx That’s great that they didn’t keep you super long 👍 I’m happy to hear :) It’s awesome that some people understood your OCD and I’m also very sorry to hear that others didn’t. That’s a common experience. Sadly when some people hear about taboo topics like Harm Ocd and POCD, they instantly view it as a red flag and that’s so unfair to us Ocd sufferers. But that’s not a reflection of us, many people are just uneducated about mental illness It’s common that Ocd makes us feel like we’re lying or we’re crazy so you’re not alone ❤️🩹 Even though we feel those ways, we have to be brave and strong and trust the facts that we have Harm Ocd and we gotta stick through the ERP treatment to beat it, even though it will def feel like we’re blindly trusting the process. But I promise that many of your problems (such as you feeling a need to go to the hospital) can be avoided by consistently resisting compulsions as much as you can 🙏 It will feel terrible at first but you will feel relief eventually and you can recover 💪
@OneDayAtATimee I hope so girl! I feel like I lied to my doctor to get an ocd diagnosis years ago to get on meds so I could rid of these thoughts I’m like I don’t think I have ocd and I’m a soon to be killer. cuz I had read about ocd before going and I thought I must have this and told them symptoms but it felt like I was lying and i don’t have ocd ughhhhhhh it’s so fucking horrible even tho I know I have it cus all the signs and I always repeate sentences over and over till it feels right so like idk why it feels like I’m faking it
@ocdsuxxx That is a superr common fear! The fear of being a liar, tricking your therapist, and not actually having OCD. This is another way Ocd manifests itself and it shouldn’t be paid attention to :) It’s one of the many ways Ocd is tricking you into compulsing. But I’m sure you already know these things though since you’ve been here since 2021 so I won’t explain a lot more. How about an exposure instead: maybe try out response prevention with saying “maybe I’ve been lying this whole time and I don’t have OCD.” Keep replaying that until your distress goes down by half and then focus your attention onto something else like playing a video game or having a normal chat with a friend 👍
@OneDayAtATimee Keep replaying ?? so like I always repeat my intrusive thoughts over and over till they lose power. Is that a compulsion I’m doing ?
@ocdsuxxx Ah I see what you mean and so I changed my mind slightly: instead I think a good start could be you writing it down instead of only thinking it in your head, because it will be a slippery slope to you compulsing since you’re newer to ERP. Writing it down is a better start for you because you’re using your senses (eyes, ears, and touch) which semi-focuses your mind elsewhere For example, imagine you write this sentence once: “maybe I’ve been lying this whole time and I don’t have OCD” and this gives you a starting distress level of 8. We want to re-read that sentence until your distress goes down by half. But we’re not trying to rush the exercise or desperately try to get relief if that makes sense. Because if you do that, then it becomes compulsive. We just want to read the sentence at a normal pace as if you would read a book And for your question, no we don’t wanna be repeating intrusive thoughts as an exposure every single time they pop up because that would be compulsive as well and also exhausting for you because we get 100 intrusive thoughts a day when we have severe OCD haha 😅
@OneDayAtATimee That’s how I knew I had ocd before my diagnosis tho I always would need to repeat my sentences over and over and. Over until I felt relief it was so horrible and I still do it to this day
@ocdsuxxx Yeah totally understandable! Do you have an ERP therapist you’re working with? They would be able to assist you best in doing exposures non-compulsively. Maybe writing scripts and sentences are too hard of an exposure for you right now so a therapist can work on a proper hierarchy for you
@OneDayAtATimee I don’t , nobody in my city specializes in ocd :( they just do cbt so I’m fucked
@ocdsuxxx Yeah it’s tough finding therapy in your city sometimes. I know that NOCD offers online Zoom therapy, I think for all states and depending on your country. If NOCD is affordable, that’s an option. There are also legitimate peer support people you can work with who like Chrissie Hodges. She has had Harm Ocd and POCD and recovered. If not, you will have to research ERP therapy and do it on your own sadly :( I’m so sorry. But you can make posts asking us recommendations for how to do ERP! 🫶 Just don’t turn that into a reassurance and confession compulsion as well because you will get worse that way
@OneDayAtATimee I heard NOCD therapy is crazy expensive and I don’t have a job due to this illness
@ocdsuxxx Does your family have any insurance that can cover it? Or are they able to pay out of pocket? So sorry to hear :(
@OneDayAtATimee Nope :( idk why they make it so expensive they want us to suffer or something :(
@ocdsuxxx I agree with you it really is a shame! Everyone deserves access to healthcare, no matter their income
@ocdsuxxx You ok?
@Someone99 I feel a bit more calm now
@ocdsuxxx There's a few workbooks out there that you could try? Theyre made by ocd experts. And theyre usually pretty great, it's just not exactly the same as talking to somebody
Or if you have some real anger issues coming up (sometimes my OCD is triggered by other legitimate things that aren't really relevant to the situation but have happened in the past) maybe talk to someone about those too? As long as they can tell whats ocd and what's not
i’ve already posted about this before but i keep thinking about it. i was sitting next to a dog and it was laying on its back laying face away from me. i kept getting intrusive thoughts about touching the dog inappropriately. and i was petting the dog to prove to myself that i wouldn’t. i remember i was leaning on the dog. then he kicked me with his back legs three times. i also was rotating my shoulder cause it pops and cracks when i do and i was trying to relieve it. i think i touched the dog and on purpose too, because thoughts were going through my head. after the dog kicked me i sat there for a second just pure panic and i ran to the bathroom, just crying non stop. i dont think i deserve to cry tho. i think my life is a over. the more i try to remember the more scary thoughts of what could’ve happened pop up. i’m just in denial and i want to be sent to a mental hospital.
i haven’t been diagnosed with ocd but I have anxiety about harming other people/family members and it’s like urges and im scared I actually want to do it? I don’t think I’ve ever been violent as a kid (im 21 now) and the intrusive thoughts don’t go away so im just stuck all day everyday for the past few weeks just thinking and being scared about it and im having all these weird emotions like being irritated and angry I don’t want to hurt people I don’t think idk why my mind is making me think I do I’ve had intrusive thoughts before that I could brush away sure it took like a day or two but this one is different it doesn’t go away and leaves me with the worst fear imaginable and nothing I look up that should be giving me relief is giving me relief + I feel like im not in control of my body and that im just gonna lose it and act on these thoughts it’s just all on a loop and im not sure how im supposed to live the rest of my life when im in constant fear of my self
Intrusive thoughts are unwanted and cause stress which mine do but also when I’m mad I get this rage feeling and say I wanna stab someone like that feels like a. Want not intrusive why am I saying “ I wanna “ :(
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