How can I recover and starve the HOCD. It feels so real since it uses sensations, gronials, urges, past memories etc. it’s so frickin difficult. I just want to recover and be the person I was.
Allow yourself to believe the OCD could be right and stop trying to disprove it! That’s the best way to starve it
When you focus on the past, it makes you question more because ocd will always come with a what if. Embrace today! Embrace your values!
I have focused on the past a lot. My mom named me after Laura Ingalls Wilder, who made a name for herself writing about her past.
@krelia It’s so hard not to think about the past :(( My ocd uses it against me
@ocdsurviver It’s very hard. We want so badly to find answers to prove why we are not our thoughts but ocd will use everything to keep the feeling of doubt going. You know the term skeletons in the closet? Everybody has regrets or things they’ve done that they aren’t sure about. The person you are now and your actions define you. It’s so hard to not try to search for answers through the past because we want that certainty. But nothing is ever certain and that’s okay. Keep being you
@krelia Also how many times have you analyzed the past and are still questioning? That’s ocd. It doesn’t matter who you were in the past. It matters who you are now. You got this
@krelia Thank you so much for your reply sis 🥺 It helps a lot. I hope I’ll return to normal and fall in love with a man like I’ve always wanted to💔
@krelia The thing that keeps the thoughts going is also because of how the rainbow community promotes that if children do/feel something in an early age then that is an indicator. I have absolutely NOTHING against the rainbow community at all, but information like that makes my life living hell when I’m dealing with this subtype. And saying maybe or maybe not is not helping my case at all 💔
@ocdsurviver I’m happy to help! I have faith in you! Look my philosophy with that is kids do all kinds of things and grow up to be completely different people. Embrace the moment now because that’s who you are. I’ve been around gay people being a former actress my entire life and never once questioned myself. I trust the person I am now. I could have all kinds of “evidence” but at the end of the day everyone has different experiences. Some have struggled with this theme a lot longer than I have. I don’t have anything against my friends and who they want to love but I also know who I want to love. Give yourself time and know that this is a part of the journey and you are going to have days where the feelings and the doubts are overwhelming. And that’s okay.
Going through ERP and recovery is painful but what feels even worse is being stuck in the horrible OCD cycle. “Choose your hard,” they say 💪 You got this 🫶 Response prevention is key
Who were u?
@lemart Huh?
Indifference. Work at being indifferent to the thought, etc., and it should dissipate. My therapist taught me that it's not the content, but how we react to it, that matters.
I’ve been struggling with HOCD for years, and it started with an intrusive thought about being gay when I was younger. It came up at age 12 and ever since, I’ve been trapped in a cycle of doubt and anxiety. I obsess over whether or not I’m secretly gay, even though I don’t feel that way at all. What makes it worse is the fear that I might have internalized homophobia, and that’s why I’m having these obsessive thoughts. I worry that my anxiety is a sign that I’m repressing something or rejecting part of myself. It feels like my mind keeps repeating the same question—am I gay?—and no matter how much reassurance I get, the fear doesn’t go away. I used to pray for my family members, fearing that if I didn’t, something bad would happen to them, and now it feels like I have to control these thoughts, or something will go wrong. For a while, it was quieter, but a week ago, the thoughts spiraled up again, and now the anxiety feels overwhelming again. It’s exhausting, and I don’t know how to break free from this constant loop of doubt. Has anyone dealt with the fear of internalized homophobia alongside HOCD? How do you manage the anxiety that comes with it?
having so-ocd has to be the hardest thing ever, and having different sub types pop out after is even harder. i want these thoughts to stop, when i think about ending up with a man i feel like it’s the end of the world, when a sexual or romantic thought about a man pops up i feel like throwing and my stomach hurts. i don’t want to be straight or end up with a man. i know my body knows what it wants and that’s why it’s making me anxious and stressed but i just want this ocd to stop, i miss who i was before this. are there any tips on how to battle SO-OCD and be back to who you were? i was in remission for almost a month and the thoughts that did come i didn’t care for, but it’s back harder this time.
I haven't had anxiety for 1 week, I haven't had so many thoughts, but when it comes to sexuality I feel discomfort and I feel like something is pressing on my chest, it's very disturbing, and I still have attraction (false I hope), I wasn't diagnosed with hocd but I had all the symptoms, (now I don't have anxiety anymore, except when a feeling that I'm gay appears), I no longer felt that strong need to watch videos on yt or look for things that would make me feel comfortable, so somehow I managed to keep this under control, but I don't know if it's recovery or if I'm just lying to myself that I'm not gay. If anyone has any ideas, I hope they write something here
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