How can I recover and starve the HOCD. It feels so real since it uses sensations, gronials, urges, past memories etc. it’s so frickin difficult. I just want to recover and be the person I was.
Allow yourself to believe the OCD could be right and stop trying to disprove it! That’s the best way to starve it
When you focus on the past, it makes you question more because ocd will always come with a what if. Embrace today! Embrace your values!
I have focused on the past a lot. My mom named me after Laura Ingalls Wilder, who made a name for herself writing about her past.
@krelia It’s so hard not to think about the past :(( My ocd uses it against me
@ocdsurviver It’s very hard. We want so badly to find answers to prove why we are not our thoughts but ocd will use everything to keep the feeling of doubt going. You know the term skeletons in the closet? Everybody has regrets or things they’ve done that they aren’t sure about. The person you are now and your actions define you. It’s so hard to not try to search for answers through the past because we want that certainty. But nothing is ever certain and that’s okay. Keep being you
@krelia Also how many times have you analyzed the past and are still questioning? That’s ocd. It doesn’t matter who you were in the past. It matters who you are now. You got this
@krelia Thank you so much for your reply sis 🥺 It helps a lot. I hope I’ll return to normal and fall in love with a man like I’ve always wanted to💔
@krelia The thing that keeps the thoughts going is also because of how the rainbow community promotes that if children do/feel something in an early age then that is an indicator. I have absolutely NOTHING against the rainbow community at all, but information like that makes my life living hell when I’m dealing with this subtype. And saying maybe or maybe not is not helping my case at all 💔
@ocdsurviver I’m happy to help! I have faith in you! Look my philosophy with that is kids do all kinds of things and grow up to be completely different people. Embrace the moment now because that’s who you are. I’ve been around gay people being a former actress my entire life and never once questioned myself. I trust the person I am now. I could have all kinds of “evidence” but at the end of the day everyone has different experiences. Some have struggled with this theme a lot longer than I have. I don’t have anything against my friends and who they want to love but I also know who I want to love. Give yourself time and know that this is a part of the journey and you are going to have days where the feelings and the doubts are overwhelming. And that’s okay.
Going through ERP and recovery is painful but what feels even worse is being stuck in the horrible OCD cycle. “Choose your hard,” they say 💪 You got this 🫶 Response prevention is key
Who were u?
@lemart Huh?
Indifference. Work at being indifferent to the thought, etc., and it should dissipate. My therapist taught me that it's not the content, but how we react to it, that matters.
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