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I, too, have dealt with religious OCD. It can be a really tough one to work through. For me, it's a work in progress. I do believe in what Christ taught in the gospels, and that sins can be forgiven. I also believe that God knows me better than I know myself, and that he knows where these intrusive thoughts are coming from-OCD, not I. I don't know if this gives you any solace, but it's how I approach it. Hope it helps.

Absolutely. I’m trying to work through this currently

I hope this brings you comfort. God said this about himself! That’s huge. Think about that. It wasn’t someone else saying, “oh, God is loving and will forgive you.” This is God himself declaring his merciful characteristics. “The Lord passed before him and proclaimed, “The Lord, the Lord, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness, keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, but who will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children and the children’s children, to the third and the fourth generation.”” ‭‭Exodus‬ ‭34‬:‭6‬-‭7‬ ‭ESV‬‬ And don’t let the last part trip you up. Jeremiah 31 verses 27-34 introduce the new covenant and the end of children bearing the weight of their parents sin. And of course, “by no means clear the guilty” …that’s where the gospel, the good news about Jesus comes into play. John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, He gave his only son that whoever believes in Him will not perish, but have eternal life.” Jesus, God incarnate, took the punishment for us.

Our feelings and sensations are tricky to navigate. They are God's gift to us to guide and help us but they are not always calibrated. For us with OCD our thoughts and feelings need a recalibration. But thankfully God's forgiveness is not dependent on our thoughts and feelings! He is God and not man that he would change or waver !