The universe glitches in your ocd theme

It’s one thing to have intrusive thoughts. It’s a deeper level of hell when the universe or outside world glitches daily and the most unlikely impossible scenarios happen daily. For example: you walk outside your house every single day at different times and every time you walk outside you see your trigger theme like cancer for example. Everyday you walk outside Nomatter what time it is you see a sick person, or a person with a shirt of cancer, or a vehicle with a cancer word on it. This is a different level of hell in ocd, it’s like the universe is conspiring against you on a daily basis to keep you trapped in fear. Then you begin looking for a trigger free day just to break free, and it never arrives. It just gets worse and worse. The universe literaly glitches and you see triggers in the most crazy ways to trigger you. What would you do then? Nothing helps. One thing is to have intrusive thoughts and triggers, but when you get to a level of ocd when the outside world glitches In order for you to see what you fear every single day, then what? Help is welcomed, where are the experts at? Never have I heard anyone with OCD deal with the universe glitching like this.

alissaa

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w

When OCD is severe enough, we can find it any and everywhere we look. I was convinced I must’ve been having a spiritual awakening with how often things lined up perfectly enough to trigger me. When I began treatment, I changed my mindset from fearing triggers to seeing triggers an opportunity to practice exposures and non-engagement responses. In the end, having so much “en vivo” spontaneous exposure really benefitted me. I also practiced exposures around this idea of the universe “glitching” or a spiritual “awakening”, since my existential OCD latched on to these ideas. Stop looking for trigger free days. They will never come when dealing with severe OCD. Instead, be proactive and seek treatment. Practice exposures around these themes to be better prepared for when you encounter them in real life. Instead of reacting with fear and compulsions and rumination, disengage and use your non-engagement responses to move on from these triggers. Every time you do this, you gain a little more tolerance of uncertainty. Eventually, you won’t be so hyperfocused on finding triggers in your environment because you’ll be too busy thinking about what you’re going to eat for dinner or being excited about an upcoming trip. Life will feel full, life will feel normal. Triggers and intrusive thoughts will pass by like clouds in the sky. You will get through this.

Anonymous

Date posted: 11w

@alissaa How do you practice erp when your mind is telling you that if you do the exposure you are going to manifest it into your life since you’ve spent every single second of two years obsessing over this?

alissaa

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w

@Anonymous You do it anyway. You stop listening to OCD’s excuses. The work IS to take the risk. To test the risk through exposure. To show the brain that exposure does not automatically equal the bad thing happening. If you continue living by OCD’s rules, it will continue to rule your life.

Anonymous

Date posted: 11w

@alissaa So you do the exposures even if they mean uncertainty in the future, because nothing is certain in life. It’s one thing to do an exposure and nothing happens right away, but I have to do exposures and just live with the uncertainty of what the future might bring?

alissaa

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11w

@Anonymous You’re already living with the uncertainty of what the future might bring. But rather than accepting that uncertainty you’re fighting against it, doing compulsions that are useless against it, and keeping you unwell. You have two options: continue doing compulsions, going in circles and making yourself sick, without ever actually preventing the bad thing from happening, OR practicing radical acceptance of the uncertainty life brings and learning to cope with the hard feelings that causes. Hint: your chance at a better life is only found doing the latter.

Thor 22

Date posted: 11w

I have very similar experience with ocd. Wait until it starts every time you hear or see something that could be attached to cancer. Ex. Some says the word sick or i dont feel well and it triggers the cancer ocd. It didn't have to be even the exact same word and my brain would get triggered. Hope that makes sense. The good thing is u can learn to notice it but not notice it. Takes practice.

imsonocd

Date posted: 22w

Any tips on Existential OCD?

I’m really struggling with this theme because it can make me feel “fake” and it creates doubts that the world around me isn’t real or it’s a simulation? I’m really trying to expose myself but even the possibility makes me incredibly afraid. It even plays into my suicidal ocd as well and makes me afraid that my life would be miserable if this was true. I know how ocd works and I know not to fully believe that. But at the same time, I am trapped in doubt and fear. How could I possibly accept this? Will I ever see the world or life the same again? (Don’t answer that I realize that’s reassurance). Idk this theme is so ass.

Elliesmith

Date posted: 22w

Question

So with my theme of ocd, ( hocd ) I get persistent intrusive images, and thoughts. It’s not like one or two a day. Like if I’m out for the whole day they’re constant. I feel I can’t even look at a girl now without her intrusive thoughts about her or about me fancying her and even sexual intrusive thoughts.. It’s awful. It’s everywhere I look. Is this common with ocd with any themes? Like is it constant for you guys too?

AnnFon

Date posted: 18w

Existential/Anxiety OCD

This is my first post, so I apologize if the formatting is weird. I experience existential ocd I always struggled as a kid but learned more and more how to manage with school and such forcing me to learn how, now I experience a lot of overwhelming intrusions from when I wake up to when I go to bed (simply because I live and work in the same place it gets cabin feverish) but now more often going out maybe it’s just paranoia, I walk into a place and each person comes with a story immediately, every piece of trash on the floor, every piece of produce, each isle is a brand new way I could get into a life altering situation. I’ve managed well enough but sometimes I just completely lose my original objective and just leave or I’ll wanna leave my house but everything that goes with it and that could happen pops up and I just won’t go. It’s started to become avoidant behavior. Any help or similar stories? I just feel like I’m going crazy but my thoughts are so scattered and immediate it’s hard to break the habit and not spin a story. Thank yall!

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