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Hey I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Religious OCD is really hard and I struggle with as well. It also comes in waves for me mostly in horrible intrusive thoughts especially while I’m praying. I like to tell myself that the gods/ god/ great other whatever you believe can see into my heart and they see past the intrusive thoughts and understand it’s part of my illness. You’re not alone or crazy. Sending you so much light.

You're certainly not alone in feeling this way. Many people with OCD experience intrusive thoughts that challenge their core beliefs, and it's okay to seek help. These thoughts don't define your values or who you are. Help is here at NOCD, and we can assist you in finding outside help if needed too. Also here are some helpful resources: https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/is-it-wrong-to-be-turned-on-by-violence-a-therapists-take https://www.treatmyocd.com/my-ocd-journey/ocd-tried-to-outwit-me https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/why-i-stopped-calling-ocd-thoughts-bad/

Yes this is ocd. It's not you. This is why you feel the anxiety