hillary
- Date posted
- 7y
NOCD
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- Staff
- Date posted
- 7y
It's great to have you in the group! Hopefully you'll find the group a helpful place to get encouragement for continuing on the fight against OCD from others who truly know what it's like. Have a great day/night!
lolalola
- Date posted
- 7y
I have Pure O too!! We will keep fighting! ?
Mjs110160Mjs110160
- Date posted
- 7y
Hillary: the SOS feature in this app was made for the exact reason. If you are having an episode and need to do ERP hot SOS and it will walk you through the episode using ERP
hillaryhillary
- Date posted
- 7y
and thank you all, for your kind words and encouragement. it means so much to me, I’m sure you all understand how important it is to share this with others that understand it. ♥️
ocdmaybeocdmaybe
- Date posted
- 7y
@hillary Here is an article that talks about what you might be going through. http://laocdtreatment.com/the-cruelest-obsession-obsessing-about-obsessing/
KLKL
- Date posted
- 7y
Hi Hillary, I have harm-ocd too and just started ERP. I completely agree that the exposures I do with my therapist don’t necessarily make me anxious it’s when I’m alone with my thoughts. I’ve been trying to write all my thoughts down and rereading, so doing things in real time. Are you also on medication? Hang in there, there are SO many people that experience this - we can fight this terrible disease together.
hillaryhillary
- Date posted
- 7y
@KL - I am on medication, been taking sertraline for about 8 years and it has helped reduce the anxiety greatly. but I agree, when I’m WITH my therapist, I can’t get my anxiety up and I end up very discouraged and frustrated, and wondering if I really am going to go through with those thoughts since I can’t conjure up the fear.
ocdmaybeocdmaybe
- Date posted
- 7y
@hillary You can use this time of discouragement as an opportunity to do response prevention. It seems like you’re obsessing about whether your treatment will ever help you get better and this naturally happens during treatment. Try to work on accepting that you will get better through treatment but progress will be slow. Maybe try journaling like @KL to keep track of your thoughts so you can catch yourself. It’s possible if you haven’t been doing ERP for four years your OCD could have spiraled out of control. Try to push this thought that your therapy isn’t working to the back of your mind. And work out how much better you’d feel right now if you weren’t obsessing about whether treatment is working.
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Cherno
- Date posted
- 17w
ERP not working, been doing it for 8 months
My theme is suicidal OCD. I’ve been doing ERP since last year November and the overall intensity of my thoughts have not reduced at all. I have these thoughts 24/7 and my life feels like a living hell. Not two minutes goes by throughout the day where I’m not suffering from relentless thoughts. I don’t want to take meds because of the side effects and my insurance is coming to an end so it’d be difficult to ween off them by myself. I’m starting to feel so hopeless because I’ve done the toughest of the toughest exposures and I’m not getting better at all. My life is a living hell and I don’t see my condition with OCD getting better anytime sooner.
Anonymous 25#
- Date posted
- 16w
Anyone?
Hey everyone it’s been a while since I posted on here. Honestly, I try to stay off of this app unless I really need advice because I find it triggering at times. But right now I’m feeling pretty down and just would like some hopeful and helpful advice. Has anyone ever felt like they’re just not capable of getting out of this? Has anyone ever felt like ERP therapy isn’t working or that they just can’t get it’s a click? . I’ve been in ERP therapy for over a year just about a year and a half actually and I literally feel so stagnant and stuck still. I show up every week I do my exposures, but my body is in such a chronic fight or fight all the time that it feels almost impossible to apply the tools. I’m super sensitive to begin with and I feel things very deeply and because of that it feels like I’m not gonna be able to ever change. It feels like no matter what I do or experience I’m just gonna always feel it so deeply and it’s gonna just rattle me all of the time. I’m honestly so frustrated. I’m tired and I’m overwhelmed. I so badly wanna change these patterns that I have and grow and be out of this OCD spiral, but everything just feels impossible. I’m just wondering if I’m alone here?? Has anyone ever felt this way? Has ERP taken a long time for anyone else or am I the only one that just can’t get my brain to click with it? Any encouraging and helpful words would be greatly appreciated thank you 🙏
inky
- Date posted
- 15w
Ugh
I always worry that my OCD is treatment resistant? No matter how much ERP Ive been doing for the past decade or so, I somehow am met with my themes again, sometimes coming back tenfold. Maybe I’m doing ERP wrong. Maybe I have something worse than OCD. I just have so many obsessions and themes and feel my avoidant behaviors trying to kick in no matter how much I try to resist. I’m exhausted…and it sucks. Even my sister told me “some people are not meant to overcome hurdles because God wants them to be stronger” referring to me. Now I feel like my OCD is impossible to get over. I don’t want to be strong, I want to be at peace. I’m not even religious and this is getting to my head and I’m spiraling. I can’t afford to be on medication or go to therapy. I’m struggling so hard.
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